Is it normal that i'd rather enjoy ''unhealthy foods'' than be skinny?

So let me start to describe myself first. I am a 19 year old female, 5 foot 9, and I'd rather not tell you my weight but I wear a size L/XL or US size 14/16. I guess you could say I am on the chubbier side, but not morbidly obese at all. Ever since I was a kid I've been overweight, even though my mother is a nutritionist and tried feeding me as healthy as possible.
Now I've had a struggle with my weight for my entire life. Basically the way I looked has never really bothered me, but it was always doctors/family members pressuring me to lose weight. So I got this idea in my head that I would never be good enough unless I had the perfect body. I've suffered from an eating disorder for 3 years until I was 18, I would binge eat a lot and then starve myself for days so my weight was always fluctuating.

Now I'm just kind of at a point where I'm done trying to change myself. I am content with the way I look, I get complimented on my curves by (some) guys, and I think I look a lot cuter as a chubby girl compared to the boney looking creature I was 2 years ago. I've decided to not try to lose weight at all anymore. I don't want to gain weight either, I just kind of want to stay the same. I just don't want to munch on vegatables all the time and be miserable just to look ''good'' for other people. So what I do now, 2 days out of the week I eat ''clean'' just to make sure I don't actually gain weight, but for the rest I don't actually give a crap and just eat what I crave.

So I guess what it comes down to is, is it normal that I'm overweight and consciously making the decision not to lose weight because food makes me happy?

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85% Normal
Based on 27 votes (23 yes)
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Comments ( 7 )
  • thegypsysailor

    I think you have got this all so confused in your mind, you have lost sight of the really important part of it all.
    No matter what you weigh or what you look like, you should eat healthy food for the health benefits.
    You are way young now but at 50, if you continue to eat 'unhealthy' foods, your body will show you the error of your ways and you will truly regret your eating habits of yesteryear.

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  • chained_rage

    You're just lazy. Now you give up because it's easy. Trying to seek comfort by lying to yourself.
    I really don't care; look the way you want to look.. but don't feed yourself this crap logic and expect us to eat it with you

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  • Ellenna

    Your size would not have been considered overweight, let alone obese, until fairly recently.

    I'm about the same size as you but not as tall and I've pretty much given up worrying about it BUT I do eat healthily about 95% of the time and I exercise as much as I can. If I live long enough with emphysema I'll get really skinny and I'll be wishing I were fat and not close to death.

    Gypsysailor is quite right: you will regret it later on if you don't eat healthily now.

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  • RoyRogers

    It depends on your metabolism. regularity helps too really.

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  • notaterrorist

    what you look like is only important if you think it is. your health is the most important thing you have

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  • wistfulmaiden

    I'm sure people won't agree with me but, do what you like. If you do t care about weight and don't have health problems, who should tell you otherwise? People on this site say it's fine to be promiscuous but if you are fat, you're the worst. Maybe you'd rather live 60 years eating what you like than 90 eating string beans. It's up to you what your preferences are.

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  • ReginaFalange

    Forget about appeareance or being skinny. Eat for your health, avoid junk food.
    Find out about tasty salads and sandwiches you can make at home.
    Healthy food doesn't have to be boring.

    It might take you some time to get used to it, but with time you'll just naturally prefer a salad to a hamburguer. Maybe gradually have more "clean food" days until you create a healthy habit.

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