Is it normal that i'd do anything to get rich?
So before voting, i'd like you guys read this and tell me if you would or wouldnt kill or do anything else to get rich.
So i'm piss poor and i'm a complete failure, dropped out of highschool cant get a job, trying to re-enter school but keep getting declined, always have to borrow money from parents and brothers. Feeling suicidal every night before sleeping. Feeling like shit after spending the borrowed money while you know you cant give it back. Also never had any girlfriend.
Having study loans, getting scammed by phone companies, even the gym. Making you pay them lots of money for no good reason even though I have no money, they keep forcing me. On top of that the proudest thing of your whole body starts fading away and you cant do jack shit about it ( my hair unless rich ).
And I just turned 23.
So, is it normal to feel like this ?
Edit :
I was thinking of suicide for a year now, already made plans.
I thought of going with hanging myself. Thanks for the support !