Is it normal that i'd become depressed about this?
I feel really strange saying all this, but I'm a guy and a few days ago I was masturbating and decided to stick a finger in my ass cause I thought it might feel good. And it definitely did. But ever since I did it I've been feeling incredibly depressed.
As some background I've been diagnosed with manic depression (not that diagnoses are necessarily true) and depression runs in my family. I'm used to feeling incredibly depressed from now and again but I can't help but feel like maybe this triggered it this time. I've had a few girlfriends in my life and think women are amazing and beautiful and I love them. I've never found a guy attractive and am pretty certain I'm not homosexual. But it got me thinking and the thinking lead to confusion and the confusion, I think, lead to me feeling like complete shit all the time... It's far too embarrassing to talk to anyone about so I figured I'd come here. What do you guys think? Has this happened to anyone else?