Is it normal that i can turn my feelings on and off?
soooo... here’s the thing. i never was much of a ‘feeler’. never felt a lot of feelings irl, for the exception of when reading/watching series/animes/movies.
i always thought it was weird how i cried at things i read online, but not on real life situations.
also, i can turn my feelings on and off on command.
i can forget anyone easily, even if i sent 100,00 thousand messages to them.
i can stop my own mental suffering the moment i want and be numb to everything around me, but that comes with the cost of being low energy and no facial expression, mostly.
also, i fell in love ONCE in my whole life and had only TWO crushes, and i’m almost 22 :x
i don’t think that’s normal?
sometimes i think i’m a psychopath, since in the past i loved to manipulate people - not for bad things. for good ones, but i did it anyways.
but i’m strongly agaisnt violence and love to offer any help i can (i’m studying psychology for dat reason) so i see myself as a duality. two people in one.