Is it normal that i can't talk to people (correctly)?
This includes everyone, not just strangers. ( I've only started noticing these things for a few months-1 year)
I have a hard time thinking. It's taking my full concentration just to type this sentence. Let's say I'm talking to my friend. I'll want to tell them about something that happened today or something I read about. In the middle of my story I'll completely stop because I've forgotten what I was talking about. It feels like my thoughts were taken out of my head and I have to either ask them what we were talking about or I have to think really long and hard to remember. I usually give up because I get frustrated.
Another thing I noticed is that when I talk I don't finish the words completely. Example: If I say, "How are you?" it sounds more like How ah yo-? and I trail off or sometimes my words mix together and no one can understand me. I have to consciously be aware of saying things clearly which takes a lot of effort.
Other times I just have nothing to say and when I say nothing I mean absolutely nothing comes to my mind to say. All of this is partly why I don't like being around people anymore.
On a side note I've been worrying about this because my mom's schizophrenic and I've just started noticing that I've been acting/thinking differently.
I might as well add that a month or two ago I was at the book store and this book caught my eye, "Liminal States." I think it was the bug on the cover because at the time I kept thinking there were bugs everywhere (in my drink/food/following me). I read the prologue and I thought it was a message for me.