Is it normal that i can't study?
WHY?! I have tried numerous times and several different ways, I just cannot for the life of me just sit down, look at the book and absorb all that information. I started off by just reading the textbook and I didn't remember a thing when it came to testing myself. I started over and started writing down key notes, which seemed to be going well for a short while and then I switched into zombie mode, I just read and wrote and had no idea what I was doing. I isolated myself, (because I get easily distracted) and it was just me, the book, my notepad and the laptop. I used the laptop as a reward system, where as I finish a section I will reward myself by playing 10-20mins of a casual game. I was yelled at for having that in my study area and I was told I must separate my study area and leisure area. So I did but that lead to studying for 15mins and leaving the study area for at least and hour. I am running out of time for the actual test, feeling extremely depressed, useless, anxious and frustrated and my warring emotions are definitely not helping me with concentration.
I had experienced this during school days when I had no interest in the subjects and I didn't even make it through grade9, and I thought now it would be different because I know what I want to do and I have selected a subject of my interest, and to accomplish what I want to do I have to go through painstaking boring studying, I just find it so impossible to just remember this information.
Does anyone else have this problem? How do you deal with it?