Is it normal that i can't move on after my tour in afghanistan

Everyone deals with horrors and stresses differently. Whether or not anyone agrees with the reasons our government chose to send you, we should all be grateful for your choice to serve.
What is shameful is the way our government treats our veterans after your return home. Isn't there any counseling available to you? If there isn't then we should consider it a national tragedy. We eagerly wave our flags and make such a show that "We support our troops". But then forget after you come back and truly need us. We have failed you. You have not failed us. You my friend are no pussy! There are many in your situation. I hope and pray all of you get the help you need and rightfully deserve.

My dad to served two tours in Vietnam over forty years ago and he's just now talking about the awful things he saw starting on his second day in country. He mostly talks about it when he's kinda drunk. It might sound corny but I wish I could give you hug.

You have PTSD. You should seek Treatment for it.

Are you currently seeking any help bro, like Therapy? Cause you seem to have PTSD. My heart goes out to you. Seriously seek help, might help you maybe move past this

Forgive me for putting it this way but you should do another tour. One that will have you wiser, and hopefully one that will make others as strong as you.

Don't believe in "bogus" ptsd syndromes and believe in the fact that you are not a soldier. And if you don;t want to be one, find a way to be one here in your home, cause we need people like you.

(not to go crazy and, relapse. But one to relapse and perhaps save a life)

You have honor, and of course a new conflict may stress you out. But im sure, you're stronger than that.

Exactly like said above. Getting active and keeping yourself busy, to avoid dwelling, is so important. Like you mentioned, a job where you can potentially meet a girl for fun and damn are aquariums calming.. that sounds like it'd help a lot!

PTSD is no joke or 'bogus sham', like whoever above claimed. I not only deal with it myself, I've seen/lived with it's serious effect.. The immense anxiety, night terrors, insomnia, fearful feelings around crowds, panic attacks, the awful feelings in the pit of your stomach for no reason just doing any tedious tasks, but the terrors at night, lack of sleep/thinking and remembering unpleasant things, it's all indescribable and obviously it can really keep you stuck in a dark place, mentally and socially, for a long time and ruin life. I dwell still and am plagued with shame and guilt that has kept me from moving on and enjoying a happy life for far too long.

Any trauma, especially the trauma our soldiers live with, is hard to cope with. But you're still here and it seems like you really want to avoid succumbing to the dark aspects of PTSD and not live like your neighbor. That's good.

Hopefully you find solace in something soon and can move on enough to enjoy your life. Also.. Thank you for your service.

I feel for you, as a Vietnam vet.
I had few problems reintegrating back into the world, but the second I set foot incountry, I promised myself that I would survive, no matter what I had to do, so I had little guilt about what it took to get home.
But many, many of my peers did not have it so easy.
I was also lucky that I arrived back to the mid-60's in Frisco; "sex, drugs (please, I am not saying to use drugs, no way) and rock and roll". I had lots of friends, great musical gigs to go to and beautiful "flower children" girls, who believed in free love.
I suggest you try things like volunteering at homeless and animal shelters, or even the zoo. Anything to get you active and too busy to mull over your past. Look for social situations that are fun, like comedy clubs and stay away from other vets; they always end up bringing up the war.
Understand that you went there thinking that you were doing the right thing, even if you came home disillusioned. You were conned, as we were, into believing what they wanted us to believe. You aren't at fault that you were there, nor are you at fault you survived. Consider yourself one of the lucky ones and believe in the person you want to be.
You've got a second chance to have a good life; take advantage of it.

Well I already deleted my comment before cus i'm miffed and now I keep erasing and starting over. But grrr. Wtf. Don't ever put me in that position again dude. I don't even... sigh.