Is it normal that i can't live without marijuana?
I'm not sure if I chose a right title or not but thats just the way I feel. I've been vaporizing marijuana on a nightly basis for about 1-2 years and so far I've found that it helps me tremendously with my social anxiety and mild depression that go hand in hand with each other. Im 21,in college and hold a part time job. Before I started "self-medicating" I used to only go to college and come back home everyday. I rarely went out. When I started using pot however my perspective of life started to change and I started to see the positives in everything. Its almost like all the negative thoughts started to fade away slowly and made room for positive thoughts. I feel much more confident in myself, happier and am overall more at peace with myself. I only use pot at night when all my plans for the day have been accomplished. If it weren't for pot I wouldn't even have a job right now because thats how bad my anxiety was. I tried pills but they didn't work for sh*t,heck I even resorted to alcohol but quit right away because I felt like it was only numbing me. I feel like pot makes me aware of of anything that is bothering me and brings that to the surface and gives me the right tools for me to deal with whatever is bothering me once I'm sober. I sometimes regret using pot because it's made me aware of too many things that I wouldn't of had known if I hadn't touched it. I sometimes wonder though if its all an illusion and I'm depending too much on this plant to get through life. I've seen countless stories online about how marijuana screws people over in the long run. I don't want to be a part of those statistic. Can anyone relate and what do u guys think about my situation?