Is it normal that i am so stressed i can't sleep?
Here's what happened, my grandfather suffered from dementia, and my aunt used that as an advantage to write a new will (he already had one but my aunt wanted everything to herself) which made her in charge of everything and basically cut my mom out. My granddad died 2 years ago and now my mom and my aunt are fighting.
At first I was pissed that my Aunt tricked my grandfather and basically had us cut out but now I've gotten over it.
My Aunt has hated my mom for years (because my Aunt blames my mom for everything that went wrong in her life including not getting married and not being able to concieve a child) and because she hates my mom she hates me and has bad mouthed my mom and I to the rest of the family and turned them against us.
At the moment I am pissed at both my mom and my aunt. I tell my mom all the time how lucky she is to have siblings. Being an only child I know how lonley it gets. I think the both of them are acting childish. I think my mom should tell the rest of the family about what my aunt has done.
My biggest fear is being alone in life (due to my biological family giving me up I have abandonment issues) and I'm angry at my mom because if she doesn't tell the rest of the family what my Aunt has done and my mom ends up dying then I'll be alone.
Latley this has been affecting me so badly that I can't do anything. I had to drop out of this semester of collage because of the stress. I haven't been able to go to Karate do to the stress, and I haven't been able to sleep. I've been up for 5 days. I am very tired but I just can't sleep. I've also noticed that I am getting very paranoid do to lack of sleep. I'm convinced that everyone hates me.
Is this normal, I've never been this stressed out before and I don't know how to handle it. I can't go to therapy because I was kicked out so I really can't talk to anyone.