Is it normal that i am so afraid of love?

serious relationship has such a negative connotation. what about committed relationship? or blueberry relationship?

my point is, who says it has to be serious from the word go? I think all your fears and nullified-feelings are a result of over thinking it. have you ever, in a book or on screen, noticed a couple who essentially liked "spending time together" for the first few weeks? that could be you

if 5% of the world learned to ride a bike without falling, and the rest expected themselves to be that lucky, they'd all die having never ridden one.

I'm similar but I'm not afraid of it. I just feel unable to actually connect with others. I seem to be missing a lot of emotions most people have. I do like people liking me though. Positive attention gives me entertainment and keeps me from feeling bored with people.

Im answering you from the "partner's perspective". As in the person that might be in a potential relationship with you in the future.
I married someone that felt how you described in your question/post. He completely broke my heart after a year into the marriage telling me he liked being alone and married me becuase he didnt think it was normal to feel how he did... listen, no one in the world is meant to be alone... even the most evil of creatures need someone. Thats what all beings either animal or man were meant to do, be with someone.
So my point is: seek help if you need it or whatever just dont get into a relationship until you believe you can be with someone 100%. Because from the perspective of the person committing to you, its an extremely painful thing to hear: "I want to break up, because I like being alone, I want freedom to do nothing with that freedom." :| ive heard it before, its not normal.

Yeah I'm 21 and I can relate. Ive been in love once but ever since it ended I've been afraid of catching feelings for someone else.

I react the same way whenever a guy tries to get close to me, I just turn off my feelings and shut down communication. I've convinced myself I'm ok with being alone but I think I'm just trying to avoid how I really feel.

I think we both need to open up to what could possibly be on the other side of that door we're afraid to open. It hurts to lose love but to never feel it again because I'm afraid would hurt worse. You have to take a chance, find that nice guy that's willing to take it slow and to let you feel what love is.