Is it normal that i am piss-drunk every single day?

So... much... detail.

I understand. Been there.

Typical. Part of what makes it so easily recognizable as typical is that you claim to be happy, but that's obviously not true (you came here to ask about it, AND you feel 'wrong' for not being productive). And you are fooling yourself with this 'healthy' facade. You're no idiot, you know you're damaged (or doing damage) on the inside, and you just use your healthy exterior to fool yourself into thinking things are OK.

What should you do? I don't know. I haven't figured it out yet myself. It's a huge deal to give up something that has been such a comfort for such a long time. It's almost like you don't know who you are anymore, and how to act without it. It's a scary thought. Even if it only means having to go to bed and lie awake and have to think about things instead of just passing out. It's a shock.

That was a really interesting story. You actually sound like a decent guy, in some respects i can see my life ending up like this eventually.

Funnily enough I was thinking about people last night who are only 'fillers' in this world. You achieve nothing and do nothing worthwhile in your life, then you die and are promptly forgotten coz no-one has anything to remember you for. Nothing wrong with this if that's what you want to be (an oxygen thief) - my dad was one.

However, if you have enough money to survive why don't you make a contribution to society? What use is your outer body looking good if there is no substance to your life? Do you really not think you could help other people less privileged than yourself.

BTW I have had a few 'healthy' friends die at around 40 yo from liver failure / cirrohsis. If you don't give your liver a rest from alcholol - every 4th day, then it cannot heal itself. Once the liver shows its damage it's too late for you.

I can kind of understand what you're going thru, and I believe I have a very good idea. try substituting a bikram yoga class for your workout some time. it's awesome exercise, 90 minutes long in a hot room, VERY challenging and awesome. i'm suggesting this bcuz along with the exercise, it kind of penetrates your 'vibe'. which I think is what u could be lacking. you're posting this apparently bcuz you're 2nd guessing yourself bcuz deep down u feel something is out of place. just try it, and i'll guarantee you'll be glad u did!

Play a sport.

Well, it has been well over a year since I created this thread and much has changed in my life. I now have a 2-month old son, and have moved from Connecticut to California.

I have tempered my drinking to some extent, but still drink more than most. I am in treatment with a physician and a psychiatrist for issues they believe contribute to my situation. So far, I can't really tell if it's helping or not.

The mother of my son (still back in Bridgeport) has certain conditions for contact with him going forward, so I now know that I will need to moderate my lifestyle substantially from here on out to keep that relationship workable.

That being said, she is also receiving about $6,000/month at my discretion, and that is my leverage. Per state law, I am responsible for the child, not for her. She gave the boy my last name, so obviously the woman is not stupid.

I would love to be able to claim that this child was the result of a meaningful relationship, but he wasn't. It was a short meaningless fling. I was careless. She is a young woman of 24 years and I am approaching middle age (I'll be 39 in March).

We did produce a beautiful child, if nothing else. And yes, I did have a paternity test done. Twice.

So, this is a new twist in the weird saga of my life. I never thought I would have a child, nor did I ever want one. But now that I do, he's all I think about.

It's 6:24PM Pacific on 19 November 2012... I'm 2/3rds the way through a bottle of Stoli. La Jolla, CA...

You and my sister have the same life style

The answer is fuck it.why live in this hideous world anyway?just saying.so grow old and lose control of you mind and bowels.id rather die at the hands of death metal and alcohol than be an old usless decrepit pile of old wasting away human.i know many who will agree and ive made my choice so go to 70 80 i fucking dare you.i wont be changing your diapers and i wont be feeding you 50 pills a day as you fade away.whos the better one here?ive already learned.just in case there is a next life.have you?

I used to drink a bottle of vodka every day but also kept active and was doing pretty well and my job, band, etc...but alcohol does horrible things to your body and you'll shave years off your lifespan if you keep up the hard liquor every day. I only drank heavily for a few years but had gotten to a stage where my doctor said I couldn't take a day off drinking without being in danger of dropping dead suddenly due to withdrawal. Not being able to skip a day of drinking without dying? That's not normal...I recently tapered off drinking and am trying to manage a few days a week off the vodka, and trying to eventually stick to getting drunk in social situations. Best of luck to you if do you try to change your lifestyle :)

I must say exercising and getting hammered do not mix they are two totally opposite states of being.i think i need to research that one to even see how that is possible and even why one would be able to do that.seems very anti-bilogical

AA

not normal to drink a bottle of vodka daily.

You are an alcoholic and have surrendered your freedom to the ethanol molecule. You have ceased to participate fully in the human experience and have lost a significant portion of your free will. Sanity is way better than intoxication. You can choose to be free of your addiction or you can fail to choose by not recognizing what it is you have lost. Sobriety is way better than insanity.

Not normal get some help buddy....seriously not healthy for u or your relationships

you are a classic case of some *rich asshole who dosnt care what they do or what happens because they are being looked after. they dont have to work because everything is payed for them so they just sit around and drink and get wasted instead of contributing to society. im only in highschool and already i am starting a fundraiser to repair and hopefully upgrade our logal war memorial. just a teenager and already my life is worth more than yours. so yeah its normal for a piece of shit like you to get piss drunk every day, havent you watched two and a half men? your charlie (before he got kicked off the show).

*i know you arent "rich per se" but you know what i mean. you dont have to worry about anything because you never have to use your own cash.

You're an alcoholic...bottomline.

Try visiting other countries, maybe that will make your life a little more better to live in.

So, your killing yourself slowly cause your bored and life is useless. Might wanna speed up that process with notions like those. Maybe youll meet your soulmate in rehab, who knows?

If you know you have a problem, you're already one step closer to combat it that is if you want to?

Well it's not uncommon but that doesn't make it healthy or normal.

It is normal for you because your lifestyle allows it.

My uncle is like that only he does it cuz his kids r super annoying

i like your story , interesting. but your poor liver you take it for granted at your peril

but the one missing detail that I'm most curious about is how the hell are you able to afford all this? I wanna know who's "providing for" you?

anyway I'd probably be in a similar boat if I could afford to do this every day and didn't have to work or had the time to do it. but I'd at least travel while getting drunk. I always say if money weren't an issue I'd go to school as much as I could bc I love learning and/or I'd travel around the world. maybe you need a hobby or to volunteer or something.

it can catch up with you if you are in a major accident, for now you might be all fine, but becareful, i know someone who was a big drinker like you and ended up in a car accident, the alcohol did major unseen damage and because of that he did not come out of the coma, so think about it

I think you should drink whisky at breakfast

It's normal... For an alcoholic.