Is it normal that i am more inirested in her pleasure then my own?

So I just turned 20. No big deal, everyone does. But I have never be with a women... ever, till just this week. I'm not gay, just never had the chance.

I live with three roommates. Two are together. The other is alone. She got knocked up.

Im the type of person thats loyal and helpful to a fault, its how i learned to get attetion from my parents. There were five boys, no girls so it was hard to get attention.

Anyway the father went to jail before the baby was born. I've been spending months with her, keeping her company, going out of my way to make her life easier. Well I just had my 20 b-day at the end of october. there was this huge holloween party. Bunch of women drunk. beer pong (I won each time). The one thing i wanted, which is pathetic, was to have one o those women feel sorry for me. nothing happened.

I was talking to the mom, i admited that i think bout having sex with her, she was surprised and started to talk dirty and all sorts of stuff. wellafter the other two passed out, she said this stays between her and i.

Thinking bout her milky white skin, long neck is torture. i ate her out, amazing so sweet tasting and tangy almost. i didnt even begin to imagine that she would let me actually penetrate her, but she did. i was so damn nervous i couldnt even stay hard. she helped with her hands but once i got in control again it went soft. i know i dont ever have a poblem with that when im on my own.

I dont know, i guess im just looking for feedback.