Is it normal that i am constantly being sexually taken advantage of?

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I am an 18 year old girl, and I have lead a strange, difficult life so far. When I was under the age of 8, men were always trying to hold me, squeeze me, and touch me in ways I felt uncomfortable with. I remember trying to fight my way off their laps, out of their arms, and so on on numerous occasions. When I was nine, a teenager cornered me and pinched my private parts numerous times. Scarred me for life. When I was 11, a guy used to follow me home every day, and grab at me from behind, chase me down and such. From the ages of 12-15 I had two different married men kiss me, and fondle me. When I was 16, my male cousin, who was then 32, was taking care of me while I had a broken leg. He came into my room at night and made me give him blow jobs, and pushed his finger and part of his cock inside me on several occasions. When I was 17, I was in boarding school, and this 25 year old guy took me outside and tried to rape me. He never fully penetrated though before I got away. A few months ago, I was with a trusted friend, and he had a couple drinks, and then he pulled out his cock, and tried to have sex with me. Again, I escaped. Now, at the present, I still have various older men pining after me sexually, and I have decided to just avoid such men completely. Looking back on my life, I am very puzzled why all this has happened to me. I mean, I am pretty, but not like the most stunning girl around. Is there some sick, slutty quality that attracts strange men to me? I have always believed that sex before marriage should be avoided, and tried to conduct myself like a good girl. Also, I dress quite modestly. So I am mystified. A few of these instances I have told family and friends about, but I am afraid they are starting to think I am a slut, or else that I am making things up, so I have stopped talking about such things. But please, be honest, and help me figure out what's wrong with me, so the cycle can stop. Thanks!

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shuggy-chan

11 years ago

>=O grrr shuggy-hulk mad

this is fucked up, makes me want to slap some douchebags around

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  Thanks. That is kind of sweet. :)
  
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  - shuggy-chan
    
    11 years ago
    
    that is how i roll, kinda sweet, kinda over the top akward funny man
    
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Paranormal..

10 years ago

Those guys are aroused by you in ways you dont know but if they try and do it again, I can kick their asses. Just give me a shout. :)

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iisabel

11 years ago

im sorry :(. i dont want to say that this is in any way your fault, as it is definitely the fault of all these men/boys who are taking advantage of you. but maybe there is something about your appearance or mannerisms that makes these guys subconsciously think you would be interested, or maybe it just turns them on a lot and you just happen to encounter so many perverted guys who would have the nerve to actually act on their attraction. maybe you have a very strong sexual energy that is sensed by these horny pervs. i dont really know, but always remember that in the end it is not at all your fault.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  Thank you for the nice comment. I think you are right, there may be some kind of weird sexual energy about me, and I need to try to get rid of it! :)
  
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thinkingaboutit

11 years ago

It's really hard to believe all these different scenarios happened randomly. If you were living in some fucked up 3rd world country, sure...but....

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  Oh, you do have a good point, which brings me to the fact that as a child, my parents were working in China, and so we were living there. Obviously, being a white girl in China made me more noticeable, but all the instances after I became a teen were with white guys....(oh, and one black)
  
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Anonymous Post Author

10 years ago

Thanks! I love guys like you!

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contrygirlz13

11 years ago

OMG i am soo sorry to hear that i had a friend who got raped she got extremely depressed and killed herself. but you keep strong and hold your head high. and just tell me the names of thoose dosh bags and i,ll kick there asses.

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AssBurgers

11 years ago

You must be pretty hot.

If you're not trolling, then I'd say you've just been extremely unlucky in life.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  You're sweet, thanks for being kind about it. Some of my friends talk like I must just have a "come get it" quality about me, and that makes me feel terrible. :(
  
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GuessWho

11 years ago

I can only think that you must be extremely unlucky to have come into contact with so many of horrible people.

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  11 years ago
  
  I hope that is all it is, and that I will get luckier in the future. Mostly, I just want to meet a nice, normal, decent guy that isn't twice my age, who loves me, and might consider spending the rest of his life with me. Maybe I'm just dreaming though?
  
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[Old Memory]

11 years ago

This cannot be true. It simply cannot be. Please tell me this isn't true.

Two questions: Where were your parents throughout all of this? And secondly, who were these "people" that gave you problems? I mean, how did they get access to you; teachers or something?

Shit, please tell me this is a troll post.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  I wish this were a troll post. I mean, lately, I have been agonizing over the "why me?" thing. Admittedly, I used to tell myself it was kind of exciting, you know, that I was so beautiful that everyone wanted me. Now, I suddenly realize that there are plenty of pretty girls in the world. But do you guys know any other girls that have had this much trouble?
  There must be something wrong with me. I know I am a very submissive person, sexually and otherwise, so maybe that is the main problem. I am a pushover, and struggle to say "no". I usually just squirm in silence. I am often too scared to talk to people. Therefore, people find it easy to take advantage.
  As for parents, my mom used to get furious with the guys she saw handling me inappropriately. My dad never seemed to notice. My mom tried to protect me a lot, but as I grew older, I got sick of being tied to her apron strings. Obviously, one can't be with their parents all the time...and that's when I would get in trouble. I eventually stopped mentioning things like this to my mom, because she freaked out so badly, and embarrassed me in front of friends by saying "oh, she can't go, there will be guys around...etc"
  All of these guys were family friends. My parents sort of run a church, so we have a lot of "friends". Also, a couple were friends of my brother, and a couple were in some way related.
  
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    11 years ago
    
    Yes, there's something wrong with you alright - you really need to stop being so submissive and stand up for yourself already; I obviously don't need to tell you why.
    
    What you said regarding your father distresses me. I mean, I simply can't imagine standing idly by while such trash takes place; "I didn't notice" is NO excuse.
    
    I would continue to inquire about this, but I'm not sure if I see the point. I mean, I'd like to help, but it seems as if your guess is as good as mine. This is just so weird.
    
    But you know what really gets me? How there could have been so much attention of this nature directed against you when you still so very young. Older females being violated is one thing, but it's nothing short of bizarre that a kid would be so enticing to so many people. How can this be? Is it something in the water, perhaps? Again, WEIRD.
    
    Regardless, I'm very, very sorry to be hearing about all this. Hope I could help. Keep fighting.
    
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      11 years ago
      
      Thank you for being so caring and thoughtful as to post such responses. I do need to work on standing up for myself...I have done better in recent months, or maybe I have just become more reclusive. At any rate, I am tired to trouble, and am trying my best to do better.
      Yes, my father has never really been a big part of my life. He doted on my brother, but I was just a girl, and we rarely spoke. I know my mom mentioned some stuff to him about my problems, and at first he shrugged it off. Then, when I had to leave college bc that 25 year old practically raped me, he heard about it, and was mad. More at me than at the guy though. He said I was stupid to trust him.
      It is weird that most of this happened when I was so young. Believe me, I have puzzled over it for hours, but it occurred to me the other day, that I have always been what you call an "old soul." When I was 6, people would say I was 6 going on 60. I had that way of seeming like I knew it all. Also, a number of the guys who violated me told me themselves that I seemed like I was in my 30s, not teens. Maybe they were justifying themselves?
      Anyway, thank you for being so nice. It really makes me feel better. You are a very kind person, have a great day!
      
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      - [Old Memory]
        
        11 years ago
        
        You're very welcome, ma'am.
        
        .....Now I'm sorry, but your father is worthless. There's just no way around it. He's scum; he doesn't deserve to be called a man. I mean, do you have any idea what I would do if were in his position?
        
        The "old soul" concept that you brought up is interesting, but probably irrelevant. It explains very little, if anything. I think the bottom line is that nothing really explains your story; you just seem to have piss-poor luck.
        
        Furthermore, it's interesting that you appreciate my presence here; if you would check my profile and other comments you would see that I am actually known to be a powerfully venomous person. Then again, you're not quite like most others here.
        
        Oh and by the way, regarding another one of your replies here, I would seriously consider getting some new friends.
        
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        11 years ago
        
        I have looked at your profile, in fact, I have had an account here for several months, and am somewhat familiar with you. I even recall having a little argument with you once upon a time. However, some of my favorite people in the world are those who come across as venomous at first, but really have hearts of gold. There is something incredibly sweet about that.
        About my father, some people tell me he is a worthless, terrible father. Some just say he is different, because he is from a different culture. I don't know anymore. I used to really want a loving, doting daddy like the other girls had, but now, I don't really miss it. I figure he is what he is.
        Thanks for saying that I just have poor luck. I hope that is it, and that my unlucky streak is over. But to make sure, maybe I will work on not being such a "nice" person all the time. Maybe if I had a little spunk to me, people would be a bit more wary? So maybe I should learn a thing or two from you. ;)
        And I insist, you are a very nice person for someone who's gender is classified. :)
        
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