Is it normal that i am considering to bleach my skin, now?

I'm in my early 20's and I have finally had enough of being a black women. I'm concerned about never finding a male partner and I find white Caucasian females (you know blondes, blue eyes, brunettes, green eyes), as the most attractive women. I've tried to embrace my black beauty as much as possible but am tired of being treated like crap by society and never getting attention from the guys I'm attracted to.

I really am considering to bleach my skin, although the messed up part about that is, I want to go from dark all the way to a brown that is as white looking as possible. Which clearly could hurt me physically. I also find middle eastern, Arabs and Turkish looking guys beautiful on an attractive scale. I love their hooked noses and mannerisms, I find it so sexy, and having 0% attention from them angers me 100%. I've always been envious of mixed race females all the way up to Caucasians because they literally get picked by every guy. On top of that mockery, they're chosen over girls like me. Being at the bottom pickings wise, I'm probably not going to be in a relationship until I'm 40.
The Arab and Turkish kind of men I love seem to secretly and boldly find white Caucasian girls extremely attractive, which crushes me. These men, few have also been really racist to me and some seem to hate black people, it sucks. All the guys I have been attracted to in my life big time have always had (as long as they're) light skinned in complexion girl friends basically mixed race or Caucasian white. I feel this doesn't give me much of an option because they were openly racist in letting me know, that attractive wise they find me as a black female a loser/ugly.

I feel like I should be able to pick any male I want because as a female, it's my belief that this is human nature and that it's how it should be. If I want to have a baby I feel like it's my right to be able to mate with males how I want when I want, it shouldn't be because someones white. Sometimes I want to have a boyfriend and look in the mirror and feel pretty. I know I can't have blue/green eyes or am not willing to get plastic surgery, but I feel bleaching my skin as an option will change my appearance and better my life.

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  • Peanuts

    It's not normal to want to bleach your skin that much, honestly I know plenty of white guys that pick black girls over white girls everytime .
    They say black girls have better asses and you cant see stretchmarks on their skin.

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  • riffraffy

    Acting feminine, being charming and dieting to a proper weight is enough to get any man's attention. These are all things you have control over, and what you should focus on.

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  • NormanTheNarwhal

    I can understand why some people have these ethnic insecurities, as many people have racial bias against black people such as yourself. However, being a white person myself, I am much more attracted to black women than white women. First of all, I think black skin is much better than white. When I look at a woman, I do not like squinting my eyes because of their bright skin. Also, impurities are much more visible in white skin, and when they get pimples and blemishes, It looks awful. I often wish I was black for that very reason.

    I also personally think black curly hair is much better than straight blonde hair. I have often been told that my head looks like a toe because of my straight, sand colored hair. I do not like it when women look like toes. I think black skin is much more pleasant to the eye. Being an industrial woodworker myself, I prefer to use mahogany wood, because it looks quite beautiful when finished with linseed oil.and wax. Besides, who would want a bunch of balsa wood chairs in their house?

    All in all, keep your black. Black is always nice. Do not let Eurocentric society mess with your head. After all, everyone loves chocolate!

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  • ginoray

    Black is beautiful !! The sexiest women and most hansom men are mixed Africans.
    Gino

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