Is it normal that i always think like this?

I'm a female and I've always wished I was male.One time (Most of the time) I'd make a fake account in a certain site and talk to random people. I remember being attached to one certain person, we used to talk all day, and text all day. But still I left my identity as a secret.But at some point I had to tell the truth. That happened and I was depressed, we stopped talking but she forgived me.I never saw her,but I still dream about her and I can't stop thinking about her and there's nothing I can do. But strangely enough I like to think about her even tough it brings me pain. IIN?

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  • disthing

    I've pretended to be a girl on a chatroom before (I'm male), more out of curiosity than anything else. But there's something gratifying about creating a total opposite reflection of yourself... You speak as you but you imagine different circumstances, a different body, a different life. It's escapism, roleplay. Not inherently sexual, although I'm sure people do it for sexual reasons. The way kids play Pretend. The internet provides you with an opportunity to be someone else, and as that other person make new friends. You are also in total control of the flow of information - what they know of you, what they see of you, everything. That power is appealing.

    Because of the ease with which you can deceive people on the internet, suddenly admitting to a web of lies can leave people feeling pretty hurt, especially if they invested a lot of trust in your persona and find out it was a mirage. The girl you upset is a perfect example of this. My advice is if you are going to 'play pretend' online, always do it casually, don't allow anyone or yourself to become caught up in a lie because it can only end badly, for you, for the people who believed you, or both.

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  • Frosties

    Tell her of your love for her.

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  • DannyKanes

    You should get in contact with her again.

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