Is it normal that i always feel lonely? (even with people)
I am kind of weird when it comes to "friends". I have phases, most of my life I have been completely alone, but I have had certain groups at certain moments.
I don't like being alone, but I have learned how to live with it and I can enjoy my time and be happy without other people. The problem is that even when I am surrounded by other people, I also feel quite lonely... in fact... I feel more lonely.
I know that people like me. I am kind of negative, but I guess I am usually nice to people, so they really have no reason to hate me. I guess I also like most people... but I almost never have a deep conection with anyone. I don't feel like I can't trust most people and I actually don't feel like talking about most things with anyone. In fact, I feel like the others feel the same... that they like hanging out with me, but they don't actually want to befriend me.
I never felt like I belonged anywhere. Whenever I have a problem, I have no one to talk to about it. I feel like people think I am replaceable (well... everyone is afterall). Also, I don't feel like anyone actually cares about me. People never ask me stuff... they never wonder if I am okay or whether I feel depressed or anything.
I don't know... whenever I am surrounded by people I don't feel connected to, I feel the worst. I actually prefer to be alone in my house than around people that don't really care about me. In fact... when I am forced to spend a lot of time with people, I start feeling homesick...
Is this normal?