Is it normal that i always feel like i have to change myself?

Unfortunately bullying has lasting effects and you should analyze yourself and your behavior to see if you're not acting the way you do because of it.

Don't do anything to please those who threaten or harass you. If you feel threatened by anyone, take it to the authorities or have a brother/father/uncle set those people straight.

The best way to make bullying disappear is to stand up to the bullies-provided that you can take them on or put them in their place. Bullies always pick on those they think are weaker, never the strong because they are cowards.

You were bullied into having insecurities. You don't need to change for anyone, love. You don't need to change yourself, you know yourself very well. You just need to gain more confidence in it.

I'm not one to listen to anymore bullies.. and I still just feel that I don't know the real me.. but, could it be Bi-Polar?
I always have mood swings sooooo bad.
One minute I'm happy, the next I'm crying and playing with blades..
I feel like I'm standing on thin ice.. I hate it..

i was always excepted yet i felt what people was excepting was never me...it was just me acting one way to what they thought was cool....if they were bullys so was i.....if they were rockers so was i....if they were preps so was i....being young is A chance for you to decide what makes u happy...i played many rolls and as a adult now i am pretty good with all types of people and u will b too...but it took me awile to find out who i was....and i believe if it makes u laugh from your heart if it makes u a kinder person if u dont fight yourself when you are being it....it just might be u being you....life is ment to learn grow and be happy in yourself...i wish u luck in finding you....

that describes me as youth.and even now, into styles that were eclectic, yet, edgy, but funky.. taking bits from several groups or genres..not committing to any..raised in neglective alcoholic home, my dads life was my identity,,his problems,,his drama,,his screwups and accomplish..my opinion was never valued or even asked..i learned that it makes me strive to find myself as adult,,without value for myself,,i struggle to feel accepted, and stand on my own with confidence...working thru that now,,,not easy,,believe in your gut instinct,,,go with the voice,,inside u is your soul,,,listen to it,,and pray,,,everyday for clarity//good luck,,your amazing,,believe it now...

Agree with notfloydzie. Just be who you want and a most comfortable with. If someone doesnt like it screw them. Don't try to be what people want, be yourself.