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When someone critcizes me, even helpful criticism, I experience the worst self-doubt, self-recrimination, self-loathing. The internal messages I say to myself are very, very negative. Why do I do this? Do other people feel this way, too? I'm not saying I shouldn't feel some discomfort, but I realize that I go WAY beyond simple discomfort.
i'm the same way. i'm a very strong stoic girl even in the worst of situations but on the inside I'll remember what someone said about me 5 years ago, I'll feel extremely guilty over just making a comment to someone that they don't even remember me saying, I keep my thoughts to myself because I'm afraid I might get a negative comment from someone else. Its a complex that, to me, is acquired from having a bad past or childhood and covering it up. In my case I was the targeted girl that was constantly made fun of, was put down by my family and friends to the point of crying myself to sleep at night and if I cried to them they told me to shut up or get over it or they'd pity me and view me as weak. So I unconscionably became emotionally detached, but never got closer or true inner self confidence. So, on the inside I'm still that over sensitive, low self esteemed girl, but even my closest friends and family don't realize or know it because of how strong and uncaring I act. I have some confidence but really on the inside I'm broken. I've tried to get over it and not care what others feel or say but i can't. Even as a kid I just wanted to please people. So, its like its from my childhood and naturally I'm upset when someone isn't pleased. I don't know if we'll truly ever not care what others think since really I think everyone does to an extent, but you just have to learn to live with it I suppose. Though, I have gotten better, like anyone else would tell you, you have to hit your lowest low and one day just stop giving a shit. easier said then done but hey, it works even just a little for me.
Sometimes a long time ago but no so much now. It may change with not expecting yourself to be perfect and wanting to please everyone.
It's normal in the sense that we all at one phase in our lives have done that before. But it's not healthy. Speaking for myself, sometimes I take criticism, even when constructive to the heart. I do question myself,but I realized that disappears with time if you develop confidence in your abilities. Work on the mindset that it doesn't matter what people think... Don't do your assignment for others... do it for yourself, and focus on doing your best. If you mess up, just know that it's completely normal, and if people judge it's not their business, and it's not your problem to worry about it. :)