Is it normal that i act like a little girl around attractive guys?
I'm 20 and I still act like a child when I get a crush on a guy.
Whenever a guy I find attractive talks to me, stands next to me, or even happens to be in the same room... my heart starts racing, I find it hard to make eye contact up close, and the worst; shaky hands. It wouldn't be so bad, but it's very noticeable. Its embarrassing!
I feel like my mentality is all whacked out. When I was younger I'd act really mature when I liked a guy. In fact, I was mature ALL the time. My sister(7 yrs older than me) used to tell me that I reminded her of Matilda(from the movie). Unfortunately, something happened along the way up as I aged. Now, I act a little strange and out there at times. When I was little and I liked a guy I'd tell him and there was never any shaky hands. There was none of that little girl nonsense.
Now, I feel like since I'm getting older I've become a lot more insecure, and I understand that I would need more to offer. I've been told I'm pretty, and I've been asked out by guys before, but I don't think I'm that confident. Plus, everyone has a preference, and with this dude I don't think I'd fit that description. I always see him talking to really pretty women, and he's a lot older too. Oh yeah, and I think he's got a gf. So whenever this guy talks to me I get nervous and it shows. Its like I'm subconsciously anticipating rejection. Even though I'm probably never gonna tell him I have a crush on him, I still have this thought in my mind that one day he's just gonna tell me to back off. Nobody wants to be liked by someone they don't like. So is any of this normal?