Is it normal that his face keeps appearing?
I went to my best friend's house, and her neighbour is so close to her; so I know him quite a lot. When I left my friend's, at around 9pm, I ran into him and he invited me to see his house. So I got in, and we ended up kissing and lying down on the sofa, and he ate me out and then asked me to give him a blowjob, so i did. it was my first one ever. then, i went home without saying anything to my best friend. i was okay with it that day and the next day, but now, 4 days after it, sometimes i remember him asking "would ya give me a blowjob sweetiee" in a creepy face, even if dont think he was making a creepy face at all.
By the way, I didn't really dislike giving the blowjob and i do not really hate myself for it or anything like that.