Is it normal that having money makes me anxious/depressed?
When i'm broke I get excited about plans, I enjoy life but constantly look towards getting my next wage from work.
But as soon as I get paid, something weird happens. I get this overwhelming anxious feeling, my head feels fuzzed out (like i'm stoned but really not enjoying it) and I get pretty much depressed.
I hate it because I can't enjoy anything, I just go to things when I have cash and I feel like a zombie, then as soon as I'm broke again I feel normal, no anxiety or fucked up head spinning.
This might sound like a first world problem but I grew up in an extremely poor household, now that I get paid monthly, it just makes me miserable?