Is it normal, that food makes me angry?

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I have anorexia and it's gotten to the point where food makes me angry. I hate eating eat, but I'm often forced to eat it. If I see something that's unhealthy, I feel like throwing it against the wall or setting it on fire. I recently decided to ban junk/fast food from my diet permanently. A few days ago, a relative got me pizza and a canoli. I got angry and forced myself to eat two slices out of the four. I took it down stairs and I couldn't control my anger. I took the box and threw it against the wall and it landed upside down.

The pizza didn't come out and some of my family got angry with me. I picked up the box and put it back on the table. I got the canoli out of the fridge and threw it. The case opened, but the canoli was still in it. I picked it up and closed it, then set it on the floor.
Then I stomped my shoe on it and destroyed the canoli with the case. There's wasn't a mess, then I got into a argument with one of my family members.

I felt like I taught her a lesson to never get me junk food again, because it wasn't healthy. The last time she forced me into getting pizza I told her that was the last time, but then she did it again. In a sense I didn't really waste the food, because I didn't want it to begin with. It probably would've just rotted in the fridge....

A pizza is meant for a group of people to eat it, not just one person. I feel like my family is purposely trying to make me fat. They know that I'm against unhealthy foods and calories, so why would else would they try to do this? IIN?

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Your family is trying to save you. There's an episode of American Dad that deals with this exactly. I had a friend who was anorexic and you have to know that it can destroy your body. You have to eat if you want to live. Trust me, you don't have to be skinny to be beautiful. Accept the body that god gave you because you probably have a friend who misses the person that you use to be.

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      I don't think my family knows I have an eating disorder. What I'm currently going through, I guess it can be called a "relapse"? The first time, family forced me to eat. The incident was very traumatic....

      I saw the episode and it was good.... I know that there are some "risks", but for some reasons I feel like this can't kill me. I would prefer to die thin....

      I've always been skinny, but not skinny enough. Most of my friends are supportive of me. Some of them have eating disorders, while some of them know other people with them. Only, one of my friends has a problem with it, but now it seems she want's to be thin too.... Ironic, isn't it?

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      • [Old Memory]
        12 years ago

        Avant-Garde, why do you want to die thin? Does that mean that you want to die beautiful? Even if your family doesn't know what you're going through, maybe you should tell them? I had a friend who was anorexic and she just gave her family an excuse as to why she wouldn't eat. I'm not suggesting that you do the same, but I would understand if you want to do something similar.

        As for the dying thin part, well I think that you want to die beautiful. However, you probably are beautiful and just don't know it. I think it's great that your friends can understand what you're going through, however, you should know the harm that comes with being anorexic.

        You are beautiful! Cant you see that? You admitted that you're thin but it doesn't sound like you think so. Beauty doesn't always equal thin. There is nobody that you should try to impress.

        Death isn't about how you are placed when you die, because I don't think anyone is going to care about how beautiful you looked because they will all be sad that you are permanently gone.

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  • shine
    12 years ago

    i hope it's not too late...don't contact him. understand the kind of person, here is a comment of his about a guy who has not showered for over a month. DON'T CONTACT HIM...

    nowimsureimsane (93345)
    1 month ago
    A word of advice....actually you should learn to implement colognes and sprays into what your doing...it started off as being lazy at an old job yes i stunk but now im upclose and personal with young girls at work everyday and ive mastered this technique of not bathing and getting away with it....years of experience mind you..keep doing it and wash your shirts in the sink in maybe some Axe body wash mixed with Gain detergent but dont get it all out....and only rinse yourself a bit...let your shirts hang all night to dry..wake up and hair dryer them...then use Axe deodarant..the combination will drive them wild..i didnt believe it myself till i was told by a very perticular 18yo....your doing this for a reason...probably the same as mine..

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      Is there a way that I can personally thank you for this?

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      • shine
        11 years ago

        I don't come here often enough so it's been a while. Sorry for the late reply...
        I hope you're doing well/better. If there's a way to thank me? Well I'll be happy knowing that you're doing well.
        This might not mean much to you, and this is not to tell you what to do with your life, this is a truth I have come to know: regardless of whether there's an afterlife, for what we TRULY know, we have ONE life.And the only way to be truly happy is realising that HAPPINESS comes from WITHIN you. People could love you today(usually because of something they fancy then) and tomorrow they may not love you anymore. They may approve of you today, and then change their minds tomorrow. You can't put your happiness on external factors i.e friends. This is not to say people don't truly love us, it's just that the natural tendency of man to be "fundamentally selfish " implies that HE IS MORE FOCUSED ON HIM SELF THAN OTHERS MOST OF THE TIME. This means there will be days in which you will find yourself physically and emotionally ALONE. So you've got to learn how to find your happiness in YOU. Now here is a question - what of yourself are you running from? No one is perfect, I dareanyone to come stand in front of me, and tell me they are perfect and I'll prove them wrong! That said, don't run from what you think are defects, understand them and work on changing where necessary. Life is a journey, you're working towards finding inner peace.The things you are running away from, put a barrier between you and your destination. Face them. And you'll find out you're strong and can REALLY do whatever you want. You can't CONTROL the factors troubling you by controlling your eating habits. Face the issue bugging you and PROOF to yourself you are REALLY strong enough. I BELIEVE you are. We humans have a potential we have no clue about!So prove it to yourself!
        Sorry for the novel, I just wanted to share some thoughts...I wish you the best!

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  • nowimsureimsane
    12 years ago

    Hmm i didnt know that was you Avant-Garde.ive always read your thoughts about everthing.i also didnt know that name was female so im just putting two and two together now.sorry havent had the time to fiqure out who creates the stories but ive always seen you around and read your comments.i went back and read you story about 'satans spawn' i do agree there as well.did you ever say how much you weigh?i really hope its at least 80lbs.but yeah i do enjoy reading your words very much.glad you are who you are...just dont die on me because calorie deprevation and what that does to your body.you still have a great mind thats for sure.just dont let yourself get into worse than you are now ok?because id miss you.And yeah guess those foods just didnt want to bite the dust that night they put up a hell of a fight.

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      It's okay:)

      I'm 92.2 pounds.... It's not the lowest I've ever been, the lowest was the early 80's to late 70's...

      Thank you, you're so sweet:) I had no idea that people even liked me on here...
      I enjoy reading your words too and I'll try not to die or get sick:)

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  • xXScYtHeXx
    12 years ago

    You do know eating a full pizza to a single person actually IS normal.. Not eating will actually kill you over time! You could always start eating little things, stick to eating a salad type thing, then possibly move onto a chicken salad from McDonalds (don't get ahead of me here) but then move onto a small and I mean SMALL pack of fries and see what you think! Just try and give it a go for me and your familly.

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  • ccjigsaw
    12 years ago

    Don't blame the canoli! >:O

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  • nowimsureimsane
    12 years ago

    Really?seriously? I only ever keep being reminded why i truly hate humans.forget i asked forget i ever even cared.nevermind.

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  • nowimsureimsane
    12 years ago

    Theyre trying to keep you from dying.its a serious condition youll probably break of it after you lay in a hospital bed.i love the way you say things though.i enjoy the way you word your thoughts.i wonder how the pizza or the canoli survived unopened in their boxes after that devastating blow against the wall?seems the wouldve busted apart and flung all over the place.at least the boxes shouldve opened.

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      Thank you, no one's ever liked the way I word my thoughts, before:)

      I guess the food couldn't except their demise.

      I don't think my family even knows I'm anorexic....

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  • nowimsureimsane
    12 years ago

    Hmm...well i do care for you i feel uncomfortable doing this in public but whatever.is there a way i can contact you?

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  • nowimsureimsane
    12 years ago

    Very well then.at least try not to drop below where you are now.

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      That can't be promised.... I seem to lose weight everyday.

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