Is it normal that every day is a struggle?

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I have been struggling with major depression for the past couple of years, or at least it gets worse every single day. It's never been as bad as it is now and lately, it's gotten to the point where I don't ever feel like eating (only feel like puking everything I eat), things that made me happy once just don't anymore, cuts have been getting deeper, suicide thoughts more than once everyday and more. Life just seems so pointless to me. Everyday is truly a struggle for me to go on and I don't feel like explaining why partly because it's personal, partly because I've given up trying to explain something that cannot be explained, and partly because nobody ever cares. I'm wondering whether or not it is normal that although the majority are bad, some days I feel okay and all of a sudden something happens that triggers it and I feel like I'm drowning all over again. Sort of like a relapse. I feel so stupid and confused because people always say stuff like "you were fine a couple hours ago" and "you seemed fine. What could have gone wrong". it's as if life is like a tightrope and once I feel like I've finally reached stable conditions, I find myself walking a new tightrope within minutes to hours to days.

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Based on 11 votes (7 yes)
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  • Terence_the_viking
    7 years ago

    Problem with things like this is no one wants to really know what you are going through.

    It's hard to try and talk to some one when the majority of people ask how you are just to try and be polite but they don't really want to know.

    I'm sorry you are feeling this way. You need to get professional help with this. There are many things to depression you can't just write it off suicide is never an answer.

    If you feel like there is no one that cares then you are wrong there are always people that care for you it might not seem like it right now but you have to remember everyone is fighting their own ghosts.

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  • Gratata
    7 years ago

    i somethimes feel like life is pointless too

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  • Ellenna
    7 years ago

    Normal if you're severely depressed, which you do seem to be. When you say "struggling with", what do you mean? Struggling alone with no professional and personal support is unlikely to get you anywhere, as I know from personal experience.

    If you are able, name your depression to your friends and tell them it comes and goes without warning: if they don't get it or are bored or uncaring, they're not friends anyway. We all hope someone will produce a magic wand and "fix" us, but it's not going to happen, we have to take control of our own lives.

    I actually woke up angry again this morning and asked myself on the way to the first coffee and the computer screen how long am I going to have to struggle to get through each day, so I do know what you're talking about!

    I find I can only describe bad times to friends after they're over and I have to choose carefully who I confide in: I've recently been able to respond to "How are you?" with "OK today or I wouldn't be out, that damn PTSD just got control again for a while." I am getting some support in response, but I also rely on professional counselling, meditation (when I remember!), exercise, a small daily amount of those special cookies, the dog & music to get me through.

    Because I can talk rationally about what caused my PTSD (rape and then an attempt on my life), people see me as really strong, which I am some of the time, but tend to totally fall apart when alone.

    If you have no professional help with your depression, it's time you found some, because it's no way to live. I've never found antidepressants helpful because they make me more lethargic but still aware of depression underneath the lethargy, but they may work for you.

    I hope you can take steps to get support ASAP

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  • Horndogjim1064
    7 years ago

    Get in and see your Doctor. You need some antidepressants Meds.

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