Is it normal that a feel this way about the same sex?

I think women have "friend crushes", which are based on idolization. Maybe she's just playing a mother/big sister role for you.

Just a simple, friendly girl crush! Nothing not normal about it! Most girls have them! Just admiration for the person.

Warning- this advice has beliefs and opinions and messy controversial stuff, but it is written in love by someone who has been there, and its honest.

You should definitely read the book The Four Loves by CS Lewis. Love is a tricky thing, because it has definition, despite what popular culture says. For example, love is not obsession. When you love someone you respect their boundaries, and you are mindful with the way you display your affection. With obsession, affection is equated to love, and people become objects to pursue instead of people to understand. You can say that Love and obsession and infatuation are all the same thing, but in reality they are not.

I'm a Christian Dude. I was raised in a home where my fathers greatest fear was me becoming a homosexual. My parents had a terribly ugly divorce, and at seeing all the hypocrisy, I had an awful understanding of what Love was, and how to love people well. Thats all I wanted. To love people well.
I tried forcing myself to become sexually attracted to the same sex, because I loved my best friend (another dude). I tried denying that I felt what I felt, and that didn't work either.
I felt sick, I didn't feel right. Which could be because my father's influence, or my Texan origins. But at this point in my life, I knew Christ, and I knew his heart. God doesn't hate homosexuals, and I knew that he gave me heart of mercy, and a heart for homosexuals, after I saw all the nasty harassment by my people.

This is what I think about homosexuality.
1. As Christians we pursue truth and we believe that is fully connected to love.
2.I think we all have lust, whether its for a man or woman thats irrelevant. And I think we all have genuine and honest love for both genders.
3.I think romance has meaning and purpose in the world. And I think that romance is meant to represent the Intimate dance between Christ and The Church. When you look at the way Christ sacrifices everything to bring us to life, and the way the Church will willing lay down her life and reveal to him her true beautiful self, I think it paints a beautiful picture.

When I look at the way Scripture paints the picture, I don't think homosexuality was designed to imitate that. And honestly whenever I spend time with Christ, my affections for my best friend become clear, and I understand that he is my dear brother, and that physical affection doesn't have to be sexual, and that year I learned a great deal about loneliness and brotherhood and what porn did to my mind and what sex was all about.

Sex is more about loving devotion and commitment that comes with intimacy. Not just pleasure. Thats shallow.

I think there's a boatload of more stuff to talk about here. And I want to address it all. The world has so much to say about this sort of stuff. Question Everything! But value truth! Cause Love has a definition. And, trust me, its grander than anything!

Take some time to really figure out what is love.

Some books?
Boundries By Townsend
Four Loves by CS Lewis
Captivating by John Elderidge
The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman

I hope and pray, you love that woman well and that you too know each other for a long time and make many wonderful memories. To your Health and Victory!

engeneer a 3some,she will go for it ,because dear its you who are denying yourself