Is it normal tha i like to hire someone to bang my wife

10. I think my duty and my love to my wife is to please her and make her happy. Since I felt that I’m not able to satisfy her sexually and pleased her due to the reason that my dick isn’t hard anymore after 12 years of marriage, and the fact that her vagina became wider after 3 childbirth. I start accepting the idea that she should be pleased by other man. And why not doing in front of me instead of doing it secretly. I suggest her to date her ex if she wants but she refuse total the idea and said that sex isn’t a priority for her. The problem that I’m getting more and more excited about the idea and likes to watch with gangbanged by black guy. I wasn’t a cuckold before but I starting fantasies about the idea. What it your opinion.