Is it normal she hates me but i wish we were still friends?

Poor thing its normal. Just fight for her

It's a thin line between love and hate.

If you are able to put your pride aside you could try to apologize but understand you would be vulnerable and if the person doesn't accept your apology and reconcile with you it would probably feel even worse than now.

I lost three female friends at the end of last Summer regarding alleged gossiping on my part. I wasn't trying to gossip per se but rather I thought I was confiding in one of my so called friends as to how to handle an issue with another friend.

This stuff happened back in August and September and I still feel bad but I'm not comfortable apologizing cause I've decided I don't want to be around them and they weren't the best influences on my life to begin with. Ironically the one I supposedly gossiped about would probably accept my apology and she is the one I miss the most. The other two I actually could have stood to have never met. So now I get lonely and have social anxiety about making friends with other women. It's easier to get along with men as friends.

Luk frnd i can undderstand ua guilt feeling i too have ndergone such accident ! ....U did a mistake n now u regret u should atleast share ua feeling even if it doesnt bothers her much !!!coz later u should not lv chance dat u cry feeling u neva gave a shot !!may b she too undestad n u.u guyz will b much btr frnds than b4 dt feel asahme go for it¡¡pllzz .....best of luck.