Is it normal? please help me!

I'm straight I love girls ...I have crush on many girls! But months ago in my school a guy sucked my pe*nis (I liked it when he was doing that) when there was no one in the class he used to suck me daily ....& I was liking it but when he tried to kiss me I always said no cause I only want a girl to kiss me first ! I haven't had my first kiss of life... & ew I cant kiss a guy & after some days he was forcing me so I compliant to teacher & than we ended up our friendship....
after some days I used to mas***burate by thinking of him sucking me... & thinking of my self fu*king him! I never ever wanna get fu*ked from someone I would like to f*ck but I would never like to get fu*ked from someone hmm & than I started watching photos of naked mens online & naked girls too! (I'm not bi okay) & I was than seriously thrusty for s*x so one day I even dreamed my self kissing him ew but that was really yuck so I didn't dreamed like this after it but I was really thrsty to get sucked from someone so one day I sucked my self than one more day & more & more but after somedays I stopped cz it was very yuck after sucking (when I sucked my pe*is I used to brush for than 30-40 mins)....!!!!! hmm I never had a crush on a guy & I love many girls even dreamed them naked....but I also dreamed some mens naked ...but I was only fucking them in dream....i love sucking girls...but I hate sucking boys & I love fucking them both & getting sucked by them both....is this normal????