Is it normal, ocd ruined my life!!!!?
I had OCD since as long as I can remember. In the beginning it was just drinking water, going to toilet and checking the door multi times. I always did rituals like stomping on my feet 4/8/12/16/more multiples of 4 times; before entering my room or any other place. As years passed it got worse and it begin to affect my personal relations and my educational performance. Because of it I did bad in my high school exam by writing the same line over and over again on purpose and constantly going to the toilet. I ended up being a waiter of a Restaurant when I had atleast a B average. I keep turning the PC, TV, Cell Phone on and off touch people on the street (yes I am a guy and had several incidents with women, though it wasn't on purpose at all) and after almost getting arrested it is with great difficulty I avoid it both in my street and on my working place. You think its funny?" You have no idea how it feels!!!! I am unable to control it and its getting worse and worse, its destroying me from within both mentally and physically.. I am addicted to the number Four (4,4,4,4)!!!! So no comments like: get used to it ore something, but please give me advice to GET RID OF IT PERMANENTLY!!!! (The fact that use so many !!!! is another example om my problem).. Help! Help! Help! Help!