Is it normal not to share my feelings with other people?
I don't know when it really started. I'm pretty sure was normal when I was a kid. But, now, I don't share any of my deepest feelings. Not even to my best friend.
I feel really alone and sometimes when something big happens, I just get so depressed and I tell myself that I'll tell one of my friends about it the next day. I imagine all these emotional scenes with me crying and being comforted. But, in the end, I back out, telling them it wasn't important. And if I DO end up telling them, it's usually a light-hearted chat which I'm not really, emotionally satisfied with because I have so much more to share.
When I was in grade 6, it was nearly the end of the year and I lent my diary to my best friend (at the time) to read. She left a message and it said she felt as if I didn't really trust her because I didn't tell her about my problems. I don't think it was that I didn't trust her, I just...didn't really find the right timing, or was brave or comfortable enough to raise the topic.
I was just wondering if I was the only who does this. It's like I WANT people to understand me and I want to tell them my problems and be comforted but at the same time, I don't want them to see me vulnerable I just can't bring myself to do it.
I fall into depression really easily, but thankfully, it doesn't last long, maybe a day or two then I'm over it.
Anyway, I just really hope I'm not alone in this...