Is it normal not to go for it?
So I have the biggest crush on this one guy. It's super huge. Like the biggest one I've had ever. And today we were alone, lying down together. He was lying on my arm, so I couldn't get up! But my hand was positioned perfectly to grab at that soft spot. I playfully went for it and he half-heartedly tried to stop me. I got the feeling like he wouldn't mind if I did touch him. I was starting to get aroused and felt a rush...
So I finally pushed him away and got up, and we continued messing around like nothing happened.
It's kind of a should I have done it? question, but is it normal to pull away when something that you want (very badly) is there, in your reach?