Is it normal not to feel emotions? not sure i've ever felt the though.

Well, I feel emotions like some anxiety and anger only when I smoke or drink coffee.
I used to feel more, even more anxiety, but now it's just gone, and I don't know why. People seem to notice I have no emotions so it's causing me some trouble, I can fake but I don't want to, I'm too lazy for that, and it sucks.
Within each year, emotions have been fading away, but they've never been intense, I don't know if they've been normal, for obvious reasons.
I'm worried of becoming a schizophrenic, and I know Posttraumatic stress disorder causes this too, and I know psychopaths don't feel at all, and I also know depression causes this, but I dischart it because I don't feel sad, I just feel very very veeeeeerrryyyyyy calmed and sometimes I feel glimpses of fondness, or glimpses of anxiety, but they fade away really fast, I feel I'm like a zen "buda" haha.
Does someone know what I'm going through?
By the way, I'm not that a bad person, I was raped like 3 or 4 years ago, but before that I used to be like hiperactive and got myself in risky situations, I am very sexual though, I actually have sexual cravings... badly.
I get boredom crisis, and I also have trouble having a boyfriend, and I do want to have one but they never feel I am interested enough in them.
I may be going through a trauma, and I know, but I just don't think I fit the symptoms for PTSD, am I a psycho? either way of psychosis or psychopathy? and what to do if I'm a psychopath, should I continue being myself (even though people notice my emotional monotony), or should I really hide it (even though it is very tiring, and makes my anger explode)?

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  • disthing

    You are not a psychopath, judging by this post. Also there's nothing here to suggest psychosis.

    I think different people have different levels of emotional expressivity and depth. You happen to be more neutral than some, so it takes more to make you excited or angry about something. There are people on the opposite side of the spectrum who are very emotional and their mood will fluctuate wildly.

    It's possible the assault has had an impact, you and the people who know you will be the most capable judges in that regard. But it's also possible your current situation doesn't provide as much stimulation as you used to have - there's less to get excited about, so you're not often excited. Calmness and neutrality aren't always undesirable qualities - emotional stability is great in so much as it makes you reliable and grounded.

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    • lylalylalyla

      Yeah, you're right, are you a shrink?
      Well, but I think I don't feel love either, I have just too much trouble when people aske me how I feel :S

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  • Doodoo14

    I'm the same way but I've never been raped or anything like that. I have trouble with relationships also , I like guys but I never really have real feelings for them. They usually can sense it & the relationship doesn't last long. Its confusing :/

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    • lylalylalyla

      Yes, I also used to be that way about relationships of that kind BEFORE, I was raped :/ ... So then, do you feel love? not just mentally but emotionally? I think I just found someone to identify with.

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  • AbnormallyAwesome

    Not sure if this is any help, but I think most people expirience less emotions than they try to show. Some guys have merely built a functioning emotional facade. But I admire your decision not to fake and actually work on your problems.

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    • lylalylalyla

      Yes, you're right, maybe I'm just less of a drama queen than others :P . Thank you, it did help.

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  • KikeRoachMotel

    Now you know how we feel when we imprison whole populations on their own land... Or put whole nations into an economic strangle hold.

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    • lylalylalyla

      what are you talking about?

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  • Sailor_Cosmos

    You should go seek professional help immediately. This could be a sign of depression or another mental health issue.

    Best of luck to you.

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    • lylalylalyla

      Well, I don't feel sad and thanks, I am currently having psychological therapies though.

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      • Sailor_Cosmos

        You don't necessarily have to feel sad to be depressed. Some depressed people build up an emotional wall so they feel nothing.

        Anyhow, hope it works out for you

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        • lylalylalyla

          Thanks for the info. Do you know if depressed people feel glad?

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  • bemah

    Your not a psycho, it's totally normal considering what you've been through.

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    • lylalylalyla

      Thanks, but even though I feel good with this emotional monotony, people think I'm insensitive and weird, should I fake?

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      • bemah

        If i were you, personally, i don't think I'd fake it. Being able to handle your emotions is a good thing, i shows that your stronger than most. You should be proud of it, even if people think your weird. And weirds not necessarily a bad thing either.

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        • lylalylalyla

          Ok, you're right. I won't fake, it would be worse :) thnk you very much

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  • Energy

    You're so lucky! I wish I felt like Zen all the time...:/

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    • lylalylalyla

      Well, people think it's weird when I am myself :/

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      • Energy

        They're just jealous. Being naturally calm is a gift ya know.

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        • lylalylalyla

          Thank you, I've thought about that, but sometimes I do get angry, and I do rage, but it's not that common. Maybe you can be naturally calm too, I have a theory of making that happen haha for real.

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          • Energy

            Do share :o

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            • lylalylalyla

              Well, I used to feel a little bit more, but then I became a caffeine and cigar addict. I drank too much coffee to the point where I would feel my brain so effin weird, and then I got too anxious and angry at all times, my emotions where heightened and then I stopped drinking coffee, and the emotions just stopped totally. You can try it but I don't really know aaall the effects of doing this, and well, every organism is different right?
              Have you always been very emotional?

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  • mysterymen3000

    Wow this is the creepiest thing over ever read and I think you're a serial killer.

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    • lylalylalyla

      hahaha... yeah, right. Thing is: how can I be a serial killer if I haven't killed anyone? ... and besides, you didn't even answer my freaking question.

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