Is it normal not to feel emotions? not sure i've ever felt the though.
Well, I feel emotions like some anxiety and anger only when I smoke or drink coffee.
I used to feel more, even more anxiety, but now it's just gone, and I don't know why. People seem to notice I have no emotions so it's causing me some trouble, I can fake but I don't want to, I'm too lazy for that, and it sucks.
Within each year, emotions have been fading away, but they've never been intense, I don't know if they've been normal, for obvious reasons.
I'm worried of becoming a schizophrenic, and I know Posttraumatic stress disorder causes this too, and I know psychopaths don't feel at all, and I also know depression causes this, but I dischart it because I don't feel sad, I just feel very very veeeeeerrryyyyyy calmed and sometimes I feel glimpses of fondness, or glimpses of anxiety, but they fade away really fast, I feel I'm like a zen "buda" haha.
Does someone know what I'm going through?
By the way, I'm not that a bad person, I was raped like 3 or 4 years ago, but before that I used to be like hiperactive and got myself in risky situations, I am very sexual though, I actually have sexual cravings... badly.
I get boredom crisis, and I also have trouble having a boyfriend, and I do want to have one but they never feel I am interested enough in them.
I may be going through a trauma, and I know, but I just don't think I fit the symptoms for PTSD, am I a psycho? either way of psychosis or psychopathy? and what to do if I'm a psychopath, should I continue being myself (even though people notice my emotional monotony), or should I really hide it (even though it is very tiring, and makes my anger explode)?