Is it normal not to be able to hold your feelings?

Ok so I have an ex boyfriend which I can't forget about. He hates me for writing him too much and not giving him enough space so he blocks me. We are so far away from each other and I feel like I have to write him. I feel this urge. Overall I am expressive person and I do write a lot. I can control myself in several things such as not smoking, not using drugs, sometimes sex but when it comes to my emotions and feelings I have this habit I write and write that's the only way I can relax but my ex hates me for it. Now he blocked me again. even though I know I shouldnt write him I simply cant hold myself. Imagine a time where you cant hold your pee and make on your pants. I hold for awhile but not forever, what do I do? any suggestions? I dont wanna lose him but I am afraid if I dont write him again he wont talk to me but if I do write he threatens to block me which he does. So what should I do then guys? ;/ I can't hold my feelings. I can't let myself not express!Is this normal or messed up? Is there anyone who feels like me? How do you stop yourself from doing it and how can I compromise this mess up?

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Comments ( 6 )
  • BfingIToucher

    You must be getting something out of the act of sending this stuff to him, or else you'd merely keep a private journal.

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  • howaminotmyself

    Continue to write the letters but instead of sending them, burn them.

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  • Tancho

    I agree with the above poster. Try writing it ALL down - every single thing that you feel but don't send it. Many people go through this need to contact people that they love but who do not love them anymore but you have to learn to control yourself.
    The habit of getting in touch and sending long messages is obviously annoying him and is more likely to push him further away. It wouldn't be at all surprising if you left him alone and he contacted you!

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  • ck38

    Maybe write it all down but don't send it. It can be quite overwhelming reading emotional letters from anybody and he has asked you to stop so stop.

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  • BoredGuy

    write but don't send.

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  • buckman

    I have that issue... But instead of sending them through text or Facebook, I started sending them to his email. So I know that they ARE going to him, but he probably won't read them.

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