Is it normal not to be able to hold your feelings?
Ok so I have an ex boyfriend which I can't forget about. He hates me for writing him too much and not giving him enough space so he blocks me. We are so far away from each other and I feel like I have to write him. I feel this urge. Overall I am expressive person and I do write a lot. I can control myself in several things such as not smoking, not using drugs, sometimes sex but when it comes to my emotions and feelings I have this habit I write and write that's the only way I can relax but my ex hates me for it. Now he blocked me again. even though I know I shouldnt write him I simply cant hold myself. Imagine a time where you cant hold your pee and make on your pants. I hold for awhile but not forever, what do I do? any suggestions? I dont wanna lose him but I am afraid if I dont write him again he wont talk to me but if I do write he threatens to block me which he does. So what should I do then guys? ;/ I can't hold my feelings. I can't let myself not express!Is this normal or messed up? Is there anyone who feels like me? How do you stop yourself from doing it and how can I compromise this mess up?