Is it normal my work makes me insecure/is this something for me?

I felt exactly like this when I started to work at a pharmacy. I would dread going into work even on days off but had to because of the pharmacy program I was in. All of my co-workers were so rude and acted like I was one of the dumbest people when I was just trying to learn and had never set foot in a pharmacy before. It's hard to dodge criticism in such a knit group but eventually I told myself it would get better and it did. I really don't remember exactly what I did but I think as I learned more and more I gained some respect and now a lot of them ask me questions. Keep learning and progressing. Try not to let their rude behavior get to you and focus on your goals of completing your training!

I remember my first practicum that I had to do before finishing school. The people there treated me like shit. It was like high school all of a sudden again. They just kept saying how sucky I was. And it really feels bad. The nice ones will treat you like a student they want to nurture, the bitchy ones will treat you like shit and feel better that you are worse than them. Then there are just those that hate new workers because they just prefer working with experinced ones like themselves and get the job done well. Newbies tend to make mistakes a lot. But hey just know that all newbies probably suck at the job it's all a part of learning and growing. And if you want to leave then do it, you might discover a better job. All the best! : )

Thanks both,that sure helped C:
they just don't seem to understand that i'm new wih this and that i can't be fast like them this soon :/ i am already doing my best,and i can't do more then that right?!
I also found out that they talk behind my back :S a co-worker told me so. It's sucks even more to know that they are doing that :p
Sometimes i think it's something personal they have against me or something.

Thats horrible. I'm really sorry that those people make you feel so bad. Sometimes coworkers can be very impatient, and rude! I've had issues with a lot of people at my work for the same reasons. And just like you, I was told by my trainer that I had to pick up the pace. And I was only there for like 2 weeks when they were telling me that. And to be frank with you, even now I sometimes get told, "try and do this a little faster tonight, okay." Ironically, my boss tells me I'm doing great! But just like you, I used to walk in feeling ill. Its all that anxiety that you'll "breathe" the wrong way. Not literally that, but thats how they make you feel. And for a while they were even talking about me in secret to each other. They think I don't know, but I do.

Bottom line, don't let them effect you. With time you'll get faster. Right now you're still learning. Once you have everything down, and you get used it(the routines), things will come much easier and flow quicker. They sound kinda rude too. I don't work as a nurse, but I work in a hospital, and they actually sound like MANY of the people from the hospital I work at. They shouldn't be so hard on you, especially since you're fairly new. They need to give you a break. And next time they say something to you, let them know that you really are trying your hardest. At one time they probably were in your position too. They need to understand that. As for now, there isn't much you can do, but take it as constructive criticism. And don't worry, it'll get better. Just eat a good breakfast before you go in, take a deep breath, and be prepared for constructive criticism. A lot of the times they might be doing it for your own good. You're gonna be awesome! I know it. Just don't think too much about it. You will get better. It will pay off. The beginnings of things are always hard.