Is it normal my dad dislikes me?

Hi, I've been living with my dad for around 13 years now, ever since I was 5. When I was younger I used to get in lots of arguements with my dad, I think I was around 11 - 13 back then and he used to call me names such as fucking idiot or retarded.

I've always felt my dad dislikes me, I have a younger sister who is 14 currently and he always ignores me and spends time with my sister. That was the main reason for the arguements, I have tried to spend time with him but he either tells me to go away or he is busy. This was mostly in my young childhood and it effected me alot so I used to spend my time either alone or on the computer for around 8 or 12 hours.

I like drawing and use to show him alot of pictures when I was 11, he never seemed interested and the last time he said the picture was horrible and I would never be a artist.

He is also very negative about me and gets super mad over little things, for example if I forget to wash up my dishes in the sink he will get very angry and start shouting.

He also wants me to do everything around the house, but my sister is allowed to just play on her laptop all day. He also goes out alot with his girlfriends (he has had alot over the years) And leaves me and my sister alone for either 2 days or 1 day. I find that ok but my young sister has diabetes and forgets alot to do her blood checks and insulen. He has been leaving me n my sis at home since I was around 13.

He also refuses to buy me things such as clothes, I dont have many and many of my clothes are old. He tells me he has no money, but he always buys his girlfriend things and goes on holidays with them to America, Italy, Canada, etc. My mum sometimes visits and gets really angry at him sometimes, but my dad does not listen.

My dad also long ago threatened if my mum and her husband (ex now) took me n my sis back to live with them my dad said he would come and burn us all alive. My mum also told me when she was preg with me that my dad almost killed her and me by throwing a TV at her but not sure if its true or not because my mum lies alot and makes up things about my dad because she hates him.

Things are a bit better now since I am older, I dont care anymore if he ignores me or not (when i was younger I used to cry alot for my dad ignoring me and was a bit suicidal) I have anxiety now and I think I have depression to and my mum says its because of my dad but I'm not sure.

My dad doesnt like me talking though even if im talking to my mum or my sister not him he will swear at me under his breathe or tell me to shut up/be quiet.

My mum keeps telling me to come live with her but she has some mental illnesses such as bipolar and will sometimes yell and abuse me like my dad, she also just wants me to live with her because of my money and keeps trying to bribe me to live with her. She tells me she will get me a dog, games, laptop, but she is poor and has no job.

I dont know if I should stay with my dad or live with my mum because they are both bad in their own ways.