Is it normal my boyfriend scares me?
My boyfriend is really really hotheaded and has some abandonment issues. He's a really big guy, like muscular and over six and a half feet tall. He's very kind and gentle, but when he gets mad it's like he boils and he gets really irrational and scary. I've had many moments where I thought I'd have to defend myself, I always carry pepper spray, and I've taken a bunch of defense classes. But I'm very small, I'm athletic, but I'm petite, if he ever were to physically snap on me I wouldn't be able to do much.
I fear my boyfriend, he just really gets so scary. He flexes up and gets wild eyed and says a lot of irrational and dissociative stuff and breaks things. He thinks anytime we even remotely argue that everything is crashing down and he thinks I'll leave him. The only reason I'm noticing all this and being so overreactive about it now is because I missed a period and I took three pregnancy tests and one was positive so I don't know. I've told him this and he was very excited and happy about it. Like I said he's a very good guy, he just has his moments where he's dramatic and spooky.