Is it normal it has taken me 2 years to start getting my life back?

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It was about two years ago that I finally got out of the vicious cycle of going in and out of psych wards and being force fed/injected with a wide variety of different anti psychotics. I think over about a period of about a year and a half I spent at least a year committed to the psych ward. I had been diagnosed with bipolar type 2 with psychotic tendencies. I was forced to be med compliant on medicine like seroquel, geodon, and lithium. It was two years ago after my room mate went to prison for murdering an innocent man in front of his daughter at a wingstop that I decided to make a change and leave Houston for good and go cold turkey from all the medications I had been told for so long were keeping me sane.

The thing is, all the insanity I was feeling for so long stopped once I detoxed from all of those psych meds I was told I would not be able to have a normal life with out. I have been off of the medication for two years and have not had any major episodes or had to return to any hospitals or outpatient centers since. I am however living on my own on disability (which makes me feel like a parasite) and looking for a job. Keeping a steady job is my only real goal right now. That is my last struggle before I feel like I have beaten this and all the shite is finally behind me.

It feels good getting this out somewhere. I know this post was long and not completely appropriate for this type of website. I just wonder if anyone has gone through something similar or knows someone who has gone through something like this.

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  • howaminotmyself
    10 years ago

    You reminded me of a letter someone wrote to a small local group of people who work with the homeless. A mother was at her wits end trying to care for her son who was on several meds for a variety of social disorders. She couldnt do it anymore and he left.He disappeared for months and she had no idea where he went. She was filled woth guilt but didnt know what else to do. He landed several hundred miles from home in a homeless shelter without his meds that doctors said he needed. This group offered him support and kindness and gave him tools to succeed. Mostly, they treated him like a human and didn't judge him for being a little weird. He got better and went back home where his mother was relieved to find him healthy and able to hold a job.

    I have no advice to offer but I wish you well on your journey. I hope you find what you need.

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    • shuggy-chan
      10 years ago

      I second this, good luck on living a happy, healthy life =D

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  • Mersaphe
    10 years ago

    Your struggle is heroic.

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  • hairyfairy
    10 years ago

    I agree with hitchman, Psychiatric hospitals foster dependance in patients, & psychiatrists don`t like to let go of patients once they get their hooks into them. Once youv`e been in one of these places for any length of time, you become institutionalised, & unable to function in the outside world without a lot of support. These places do more harm than good.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      The memories from being in that hospital are still very vivid two years later. Since I stopped seeing counselors and doctors and taking medication I feel a lot better. Those places are mainly about profit and will keep people way longer until they cannot get money from your insurance company anymore.

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      • peterr
        10 years ago

        What about sex? Are you sucking cocks or what? did you do that in the hospital?

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          10 years ago

          No.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    Not a day goes by when things aren't what they seem.

    I always wake up angry, 'cause I always wake up me.

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  • hitchman
    10 years ago

    i use to want to be mentally insane, then i use to fear i really was. Now I dont know nor do i care. I do still however have the urge to check myself into a mental hospital and just stay there for however long it may be. Have you heard that one song by Harvey Danger? Flagpole Sitta? I know I'm not sick, but I know I'm not well either

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      I wouldn't recommend ever checking yourself into a psych ward unless you actually feel you have no other choice.

      Once you get into that system it is very hard to get out. I have seen people check themselves in voluntarily for minor depression issues and end up involuntarily committed for almost 6 months. During which, some being restrained and forced to take unnecessarily powerful medications by injection and manipulation.

      I have witnessed what goes on in some of those places. It is horrible what happens. I wouldn't wish that kind of life on even my worst enemy.

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  • Short4Words
    10 years ago

    I can't say I've been through quite the ordeal you have, which makes you much stronger than I am. But I was pretty much out of commission for almost two years until just recently. I am glad things are looking up for you though and I hope you find work soon.

    God bless.

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