Is it normal it bothers me so much?
So first let me start off by saying I don't have much confidence at all and my self esteem is very low. I don't think I'm that pretty or have that great of a body. I've been called chubby (in a way) 2 years ago and I can't let it go.
Also when my friends jokingly call me chubby or something I get super upset. Like one of my friends newest comebacks is saying your blah blah what ever u said. Example: she was eating pizza and I said ur eating liquid fat (inside joke) and she said ur liquid fat! she didn't mean anything but it hurt my feelings.
Also a guy who likes me last night randomly texted me sorry. I asked why and he said he called me fat because he was showing his friend a picture of me and he accidentally clicked on a picture of a fat person and said yep she's fat. Even though I know he was kidding and he even said he was kidding and knows I'm not fat it upset me really bad.
It's been so bad I've gone on tons of diets and almost got a eating disorder and I've done stuff I'm not proud of. Is it normal it bothers me so much though when people call me fat even of there just kidding?