Is it normal im in love with my cousin of same sex???

Ok so im a girl in my end teen age and I'm in lovee with my cousin of the same gender. Im a Mexican and my cousin is an american. We both live miles away and recently i just realized how i fell in live with her on first sight idk whether its normal or not but like i have a few set of songs i listen to her and imagine this whole scenario lol but her pictures drive me crazy :) i live far from Mexico at the moment but shes in US now. I was always a lesbian i had a crush on other few girls but after meeting my cousin i forgot about every other girl (i never really let out my feelings to the other girls either and don't plan on either any time soon) you know family reasons. Any way i could at least be close to her since we hardly talk ????