Is it normal im always so stressed?
I was always a happy kid but my school life was hell. I got bullied by every douche in sight. Yea, i always stood up for myself but later on i'd get exhausted having to deal with the samething tomorrow.(not to mention i have heart problems, which makes matters even worse already) I would always be called stupid whenever i'd fuck up on a test even though i'd study EVERYDAY!! Then theres my brother who started drinking and is now in the hospital under CRITICAL treatment. So now im worrying about him! Sometimes i try so hard to relax and it just never works. I can never have a stress free day because whenever i do something bad happens.Sometimes my stress just gets so bad i'd end up crying about how i can never be normal. Sometimes i just wanna kill myself but i know death isn't the answer. I wish i could talk about the stress im in but my mom is going to be really hurt if she finds out i was in that much pain and didnt tell her. I honestly have no idea how to handle this. I dont get it am i freak or what?