Is it normal if you think you're mental?
I think I am. I want to go into someone else's point of view literally and see if they see what I see, how I see things, the way they feel, etc and if they see the same things and same way that I do, then I just gotta suck it up and stop thinking too much. But I kinda want the results to be that I think differently so I feel like I have an excuse for the way I act. My mom used to take me to a neurologist when I was smaller so I never questioned her why. They figured out that part of the reasons I was having these disorders was not the heart but cause of my brain. So then I think now, well no wonder I view things this way, I am soooooooooooooooooo mental its not even funny. I hesitate to ask her am I special ed? I dont think I am but I just feel like Im on the edge. Im the only one who can determine if I am based on how I think things and act and yup I just feel it. Im slow, scared of confrontation, im in my own world and I feel like this wall between me and the rest of the world like everyones against me. Recently, Im trying to improve my social skills by letting go and not thinking so much by literally sticking my head out and having better posture, in a way literally leaving my brain behind so my thoughts dont disturb my reactions. Regardless, if Im going to live for a while, I pray and hope that my life gets better especially socially because Im young, the time to enjoy life without being stressed,and I refuse to be someone who is trying to act young later in life when Im passed my years.