Is it normal if im happier drunk than sober?
I know its bad but is it normal? The first time i drank it didnt hit me so i was like awww boooo i guess life will suck no matter what. Then i smoked for the first time and i had my doubts it was gonna do anything cause when i drank it didnt do anything so i was like whatever. But it hit me and it was the happiest time of my life! It was like what ive always wanted out of life which was laughing and doing anything i wanted and I was accepted, no one cared what I did nor did I care what they thought . It was perfect! I only smoke every now and then so thats why i say "drunk" cause i prefer drinking. So after that smoking session, i drank at this one party thinking it wasnt gonna hit me but it did! So i was like yayyy omg its weird it hit me after i smoked which was two completely different days. But when i drank, i just felt accepted again, lose, and happy. Its not that i feel accepted cause i drank. Its that when im drunk, i feel like i can do anything without thinking too much about it and everything is free-spirited. When i go to a party now, i want alcohol because its more fun drunk and thats not good cause you should be able to have fun sober as yourself but im too stiff if i dont drink at parties and feel like the weirdo so ill drink and i get lose and everything is fun. I told myself the next time at a party, i wont drink, if i do itll be like a margarita or mojito nothing hardcore and see if i can still have fun.