Is it normal if i wish i was a boy?

First of all, I think I am half male half female. I've always joked around with my parents like "guys did you forget? I am a boy!" No but really, ever since a little girl, I was a tom boy ish. Then I think came middle school where I was forced to look and be a girl by society. So I started caring about how I looked which lead to low self-esteem and insecurities. Never felt good enough. Then high school came and you can say I evolved to being a girl without forcing myself to be one. It just came natural. BUT the tom boy in me was still there and would pop up randomly. Some of the tom boy traits I would carry is not giving a sh*t, my taste in a few things, my mindset, my lack of feelings, etc. But yeah I guess the female caught up and I just started catching feelings and thoughts that weren't necessary such as how I look, does he like me, indecisiveness, which all just leads to plain disappointment. College was just me being me, the girl and the boy all at once but more girl. Don't get me wrong, I am a normal girl, I don't dress in like guy clothes or anything but inside is what counts. Sometimes, I just want to not give a sh*t and walk away simply like so many guys do. For girls, its harder to walk away. Even if she walks away, she is still dwelling on whatever it is. For guys, they're over it in a second. I'm also weird and I think too weird for girlfriends to handle. Maybe that's why I get along with guys more and have more guy friends. But I've also come to the conclusion that these "guyfriends" of mine, have a small crush on me but anyways thats a different post. Also, its way more easier for guys to not care about what others think of them while girls, either they love caring about what others think of them or they can't get rid of those thoughts. For me, I can't get rid of them. I wish I just naturally didn't care like guys do and have my priorities straight like guys do. I notice guys focus easier too while girls like to balance out a lot of tasks which can interfere with each other. They say "girls over-analyze and guys over-simplify." I rather over-simplify and not have unnecessary thoughts running my life.