Is it normal if i think i'm sexist?

I think I am sexist but against my own sex. I'm a girl and I'm just not a fan of girls much. Sigh...I have just never had the best luck of making friends with girls, liking them, them liking me, etc. I am not a feminists, that is for sure, or at least the ones who have the idea all wrong. I have met great feminists with a great mindset in terms of how society works. I wish all feminists were like that. But no. A lot of girls my generation are really egotistic and urks me so much. I can understand why guys get a headache when they think they are entitled to everything.

If I am not bothering my bf as much as "I should" then it means I am letting him get away with everything and I am a doormat. Um not this is only true if I am not happy with how things are going but since I am, this doesn't apply. Just cause I'm a girl, doesn't mean just because I choose to not nag all the time or don't feel like I deserve more than whatever he gave me, doesn't imply that I have low self-worth or confidence in myself. I am not "settling for less." Its always "girls don't settle for less than you deserve..." wth? you work with what you have, not sit back and wait for what you think you deserve.

Girls are also huge hypocrites. They say they are not all about looks, yet they go to these stores dedicated only to make up like MAC or Sephora or Ulta Beauty. Do you realize that these used to be departments of a store and turned into their own stores because girls are so obsessive with how they look? Sure you can be beautiful and smart, but just own up to the fact that you care about your looks as much as society cares about your looks.

Be real. I think thats the main issue I have with girls is they're fake and I can again, understand where guys come from when they fear opening up to a b*tch who might take advantage of them. Over time, men do have something to do with this "egotistic" attitude of girls. There have been men who have effed up in the past and caused girls to be overprotective with themselves, therefore, their confidence level has increased to conceitedness like "I deserve better." Idk but girls are also very analytical and stubborn. They will over analyze something and not change their mind about it when its clearly wrong. It's all about them isn't it? At the end of the day, girls are all insecure deep inside, including me, so yes I'm sorry to give it to you "ladies" but you know you are insecure and have to build a guard around you so you don't get destroyed or at least try to look intimidating. Can you tell I am so sexist against my own sex?