Is it normal if i'm going backwards at my age?
I'm in my early twenties and feel like I want what everybody else has and everybody else wants what I already have. I'm referring to learning how to be alone. It seems like everyone especially at my age is at that stage where they want to pursue being alone and being fine with it but not only that but they admire it and praise it. To be honest, I find it super hypocritical but is it really a surprise from my generation? Nope. But anyways while they claim they wanna be alone and happy by themselves, I'm over here being a pro at it and wanting some friends. I know if people saw that I am alone in this world and I'm actually genuinely happy hanging out by myself, they would call me a loser or a loner. They have no idea what it truly feels like to be alone, to not have anyone message them to hang out, to go to restaurants and eat by themselves, to talk to yourself while walking or at home, etc. And yet there they are announcing the "art" of being alone and how powerful it is. I think it's a huge load of crap because I don't think none of them can stand being by themselves for a day.
I'm not hating I'm just being real. It's frustrating to someone who's originally a loner if you wanna call it that. Well now I am seeking friends while people say learn to be by yourself I'm like I've already conquered that! You wouldn't know because you don't know what its truly like to be okay by yourself. It's just all mixed up now, not sure how to make friends when we're clearly at different stages.