Is it normal if i look up to my ex?

He's not my ex yet, but we are going to separate later since we're gonna be long distance along with other factors. But yeah anyways, throughout our relationship I always looked up to him. He motivated me to be a better person in all different ways. He's smart (book and street smart), organized (kind of OCD but in some ways that's good), introverted but still knows when and how to party, career oriented and focused, confident, family person, and independent. Might have missed a few but named the main ones. He just makes me want to be all of those and be as successful as he is right now. He's 27 and I'm 22. Sometimes I forget the age difference and start pressuring myself that I should be on his level already. I guess what makes it confusing is how we went to college together and graduated at the same time so in a way I'm ahead of him since he graduated at 27. But he doesn't look nor act like he's 27. He is mature but not like old fart mature. So because he doesn't come off as old as he really is, I think he is my age and start comparing myself to him and think I need to get my sh*t together like he has. But yeah I guess in reality, I shouldn't worry because I am younger than and have plenty of time to reach his level accomplishment or even pass it. So when we are finally apart, I'm going to use him as a motivation to reach my goals. I look up to him on how focused he is and doesn't let anything get in his way including me. During our relationship, I was def not his first priority. I guess one of the factors was how we weren't exactly official but we were together. Part of the reason why we weren't together was because we were both too busy to fully commit to a relationship. So yeah he's just focused and confident and makes the right decisions. I felt so safe and secured with him and I want people to feel that way with me, too. So although he's going to be my ex, I'll always look up to him not to mention he has raised my standards when dating. If I happen to start dating other guys, well if they aren't as great as he is then I won't be interested. It'll be hard to go from someone like him to someone like meh.