Is it normal if i keep pretending and lying to myself ?

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What a mind-f*cking ride. I didn't believe this could happen but its happening to me now. I've been seeing this guy forever blah blah we all know the story he's a douche I keep giving him chances why ? Cause I really like him and see so much potential. But 1) he's a guy and I've been asking around how clueless guys can be and the majority including guys say yes theyre not thinking what you're thinking and so on...2) his ways suck and being a guy isn't an excuse. I've seen it...guys showing their emotions it CAN happen. But for him he just lacks that ability to express his feelings so I've come to deal with it but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt me, it still does. But his gfs had to deal with it too so idk if its either he does really like and care about me but thats just how he is or it really is me and he doesn't have strong feelings for me. Its f*cken mind blowing and the most effed up rollercoaster I'll ever go on. Here's the thing though, I am SO in denial. I'm here writing out my feelings and thoughts about the truth but I text him in front of my eyes pretending like everything is okay like some kind of robot. To friends and family, I talk about him on such good terms and in my head I'm like if only you guys knew. But that's not to say everything bout him is negative because what I do focus on are the positives when I talk bout him. But I just idk I try to see it in someone else's perspective and I look like dumb blinded girl being manipulated but then maybe its just all in my head. We've been living apart for like two weeks and he misses me so much and says things I love to hear. He's even making plans to see me like he's serious. Okay great but then I think is he just lonely right now? And knows I'll always be there no matter what? So its not like he misses ME but he misses having someone around? I'm torn and before I see him again I want to make sure where the f*ck do we stand? Cause I'm over it and now that I'm far, I can easily move on. And my love for him? Well I guess it would just be those "lost love" cases where I have to let go cause of certain circumstances.

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  • VeganKiller365
    9 years ago

    Forget about him honey, he's probably a vegan, no good they are :(

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    • EccentricWeird
      9 years ago

      That's prejudiced!

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      • RoseIsabella
        9 years ago

        Yeah, but meat really is delicious.
        :-)

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  • RoseIsabella
    9 years ago

    You said in your post that you were in denial, so accept reality forget about him and move on with your life. I'm not trying to sound like anybody's mama, but there really are plenty of other fish in the sea. I know you're afraid of being alone, but feel the fear and do it anyway. Move on with your life!

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  • Fall_leaves
    9 years ago

    There are guys that are emotionally mature, like this guy using that as an excuse makes it seem like all guys are that way, they're not. Just drop him it's a waste of time, the only reason he's saying everything you want to hear is because he's lonely and sees you as someone that is always available.

    Stop giving him chances and cut him out of your life, it's not going anywhere there is no future with him. If he hurt you once and you forgave him and took him back then he knows you'll take him back if he hurts you again, he won't learn so do him and yourself a favor and show him you're done with his bullshit. Then maye you both will move on and he'll learn from his mistakes with you.

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