Is it normal if i hate my voice?
As an aspiring reporter/radio personality, Ive got to experience how my voice sounds but I have also discovered everyone especially in this industry hates their voice, too. But outside the industry, I just hate how my voice sounds like a 15-year-old/annoying barbie. It's not like a super girly voice but its like a girly voice that hasn't gone through puberty. I'm almost 23 and Im having trouble presenting myself as an adult when my voice is literally in the way. When I talk, I don't sound like the way it actually does but I know thats for everyone. But I do talk hoping that I'm sounding like the way I want to sound but at the end of the day, I still come off as this little girl getting ready for her sweet 16.
With all the social media and video apps we have today, you can view how you come out to others such as in snapchat. I'll make snapchat videos just for myself to hear and see how I come off and god it sucks. When I'm recording myself, I'm thinking I'm this whole different person from who I really am. Then I watch the video, its like ew I'm not sending that one to anyone or anything. It's like who's that? I think it goes beyond my voice, too. It's like how you see yourself is not how other see you. So you are start thinking, who's perspective is the truth? Mine's or theirs? You would think yours but considering, the outside world sees you more actually than you see yourself, maybe their perspective is the truth.
I think my voice gets in the way of my personality. It does make an impact on the rest of me and it sucks. I'm not a little girl and I believe I am more mature than most people my age but my voice makes me stand out as this lost puppy. When people ask if I'm 17 or 18, I remember oh its cause of my annoying stupid voice. Is there anything that changes it? You knw how guys drastically change their voice when they go through puberty, thats what I want to happen to me but its sad that Im thinking this at age 23 when it shouldve been at age 15. Sometimes its not like a little girl's voice, but it's just a different sound as opposed to what I think I sound like when I'm talking.