Is it normal if i hate how i can't function?

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I have this hate for the way I function. It's like literally a war against myself. I hate how my brain functions, its not me, I'm better than that. I know I look like Im retarded or sometimes dyslexic but it all interferes with the way I go about my life. I just hate how I was cursed with this learning disability. Its getting in the way of a lot of sh*t including my love life. I knew I had a problem before I got with him but once I started dating him, it just came out more and I would get so frustrated with it. My bf now ex recognized this issue, never said anything but I know he thought in his head that I was special ed or somewhere along those lines. Its really embarrassing and annoying. I feel like my brain doesn't go with my personality. I wish I was smart like I know I am. It especially comes out when Im in social settings and humiliating. It's like I didn't mean to look dumb but I am sorry. I have some people who do like to poke fun at my disability and mention I'm "special" its irritating as hell because I'm not but I am. Or im not but my brain is. I dont know how to fix this but I want to fix it as its getting in the way of a lot of things I wanna do. The cherry on top was my relationship. I was crazy about him and I wish we couldve stayed together but things didn't work out although we have some hope for the future. I wanna be smarter the next time we try again. I just wanna be who I know I am but my brain is in the way. I like to learn about a lot of things but I can't retain the information so when I'm asked about something I have knowledge about but because of my brain dysfunction and being mentally challenged, I come off as not knowing the information when I know I do! My brain just didn't keep it there.

P.S I also have social anxiety so that doesn't help my case at all. You know when they say just cause you're shy doesn't mean you're slow or aren't smart enough, well I wish that were my case.

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  • Clairefontaine
    7 years ago

    http://beatricemilletre.com/petit-guide-a-lusage-des-gens-intelligents-qui-ne-se-trouvent-pas-tres-doues/

    I dont know if you read french...

    The title means, more ort less : A little handbook for bright people who don't find themselves so good..

    This book helped me so much. This lady explains that some people use their right brain hemisphere instead of their left. And that the world is generally organized following the other hemisphere's way of working,because that's how most of the people function...Maybe, you are just like me.. Ive always felt dysfunctional. Although I know Im intelligent. I cant function the way people do usually. I dont reflect the usual way. It gets in the way of a lot of things, it impacts on my social life also... Well, this book really changed my perspective.

    I am sure you that if you can have confidence in yourself, and don't hit yourself on the head, but rather treat yourself gently and lovingly, you can find ways to organize to just promote your creativity. Get to know yourself, and be confident about your skills...Im sure you can do it.

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  • Smokey1D
    7 years ago

    WE all do dumb things sometimes. When we're really stressed, our brains find it harder to function normally, so it seems like we're not functioning as well as we know we can. And we're not. You need to de-stress a bit to function like yourself again. No quick fixes. Exercise more, rest, eat good food, talk to your friends and family and try to do somethings you like to do to make yourself happier.

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  • ThatScarletteGirl
    7 years ago

    O.o

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  • AbnormallyAwesome
    7 years ago

    Well, everybody could be a lot smarter than they are. There's always someone that can make you feel dumb. The only thing that matters is the willingness to learn, which clearly you have.
    That makes you a lot wiser than all those people who happened to be born with a highly functioning brain and only use it to talk down to others. Wisdom comes from suffering and being challenged. So even if they know more "information" about life, you know far more about living.

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  • FORUMidableFucker
    7 years ago

    I know for a fact I am pretty fucking smart and you ARE NOT STUPID AT ALL, I believe YOU ARE actually SMART. You know who is stupid? A guy who makes fun of his girlfriend for because they don't know something. Learning is fucking stupid in most cases.You know who learns to parallel park , "every driver" and you know why it matters? Only to bullshit and say you know it to use it once. So I am saying fuck the people that say shit about you and that I hope their freshly gouged throats choke in blood riddled cocks.

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