Is it normal if i don't know if i'm a fat person or skinny person?
I know everyone has experienced seeing their bodies in a different way in different times; whether its looking different in the mirror as opposed to a picture or even looking in the same mirror with the same clothes or naked on both times. Its sucha frustrating thing! I wanna know if Im a skinny person or fat person, how do I appear, etc. I want like a video taken of me from a distance so I can see how I appear. People also see me differently: volumptuious, petite with curves, small, ahhh there are so different that I'm so lost! If they sounded similar then I'd have an idea but they don't so I don't! My thighs are the most frustrating feature of mine. Even when I lose weight and feel skinny, my thighs look so huge, like ginormous pillows. Then I'm like ok? I really wanna get surgery or something to get rid of them they're just ugh blah. They confuse me like once I see how big they are, I feel huge and I think they are a part of what makes me look even bigger. Sometimes it gets even more irritating when you're around different shapes and they make you feel different. If I'm walking on the beach with a bathing suit on next to a twig Imma feel huge! and I'm probably not even like that. Or if I'm with someone a little heavier imma feel petite and think I am petite when really I'm chubby too. So this post isn't about wanting to lose weight its about what is my shape so maybe if Im not as bad as I think I am I'll stop worrying and move on or if yeah I am big and need to lose weight then I'll know I have to lose weight. It might sound like an insecurity issue and hek yeah it probably is but despite that I wanna know what body type I am. Does anyone else feel this frustrated? They don't know what body type they are like me?