Is it normal if i don't feel like me around family?

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Family is supposed to be the number one place to go to when your friends aren't around or something just went wrong or just for plain relaxing. I get others don't have that but in my case, I do have a supportive family and everything but what if you can't help but feel that it's fake? Sometimes I just want to blow up and hurt someone in my family physically like I would to someone out of my family when I'm feeling like a fool in front of them. I know that some of my cousins think I am this stuck up person, or just girly and I freakin can't stand it anymore because they obviously don't know me. Its understandable if its friends or acquaintances thinking that but family? they're supposed to know who you are and let you be you but for me, I feel like I can't be me without being judged. During a gathering we were all just joking about drinks and stuff and my cousin said about me "omg I know if she was drunk, you'd be one of those drunkies criticizing what everyones wearing! hahaha" I'm like haha? is that who you think I am? thanks for letting me know and adding to the list of people who think they know me. I started to think maybe the person I am portraying is that person everyone thinks I am even though I am not and that sucks. But then I met my boyfriend and one of the reasons he is my bf is because he knows me other than me, and possibly my mom. I wish I can tie my bf next to me everywhere I go because with him, I feel like me and its okay and acceptable. One day, and thats gonna happen soon, I am going to finally let everyone, family wise, know "that as unusual and crazy as it sounds, you don't know me. He (my bf) knows me and so do I! If everyone had the mind of him wow everyone would know what a good person I am or at least who I am" and more I just can't write it all. Now I am just reserved around family because I'm just laughing in my head like you guys think you know me or I know you guys are judging me right this second. If only I was in a world surrounded by my bf times a million, I'd be fine because I'd be myself and its okay. Is it normal how I don't feel at home with family and I have someone else who does make me feel like me who is not in my family?

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Based on 57 votes (50 yes)
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  • GreatArt
    10 years ago

    So relate dude. My family's the same (somewhat). I feel really uncomfortable round them with their holier than thou attitude that I used to lie about myself alot. Now I've just learned to be myself. I guess family is no different from a bunch of outsiders who live with you. If anything, they're the most critical and we're all under a false pretence of what family is supposed to be. At the end of the day, they're there for me, so I try and push their crappy behaviour out of mind.

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  • beccat2012
    11 years ago

    I'm glad I'm not the only one in the world who feels this way. I'm pretty much in the same boat as you lol.

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  • Thewomanizer
    11 years ago

    yes it is normal, sometimes people just don't seem to feel comfortable even in their own family, perhaps it's because your too worried about what others are thinking and usually if you have an issue or something about yourself that you don't like, being judged by whoever can reflect that upon yourself which inevitably makes you upset or awkward. Also a lot of families are fake because they don't speak their truths and cover up with smiles and laughs but under neath there's this tension and fearfulness.

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